Carpe Diem

[Tina]

A good day today, been to work, had 150g of carrots, and tomato soup made from water (maybe 200 cals, I don't know). Maybe I'll weigh in tomorrow, but I'm so scared!!! If I haven't lost, I'll go crazy!!!!
My jeans feel loose.
Going to a friend's house tonight, she's gonna make pizza from scratch. Damn. I have no excuse, all I can do is eat as little as possible, and say that I HAD to eat when I came home from work cause I was so hungry.
I feel like it's only a question of time before they smell the coffee and confront me. I think, if they do, I'll own up to it and say that I really wanna loose weight before summer. I don't think there's a girl in the world who can't relate to that!
The date hasn't called me, but he keeps IMing me at facebook. He hasn't asked me for a new date. I have decided to try NOT to obsess about guys anymore. Still, I know we're gonna talk about it tonight, cause my friends know him. I don't know, I think my loosing weight has made me more confident, so I handle rejection better.
Back tomorrow. Have a great night you guys!

[Tina]

I ended up having two slices yesterday, but they were really small (maybe 50g's each), so I think I did pretty good after all. Surtainly if you compare it to how I can gob up an entire pizza alone...but that's in the past.
Three people commented on me having lost weight last night. It felt really good, and very motivating.
Party tonight, maybe the date will be there, I don't know, but I hope so.

I'm definitely gonna fast for 10 days, starting monday. I just have one problem: not eating at work. I don't know if I'll be able to do that, cause then they'll all know something's up. But if I have carrots and some lowcal soup, I think I can fool them. But then it's not fasting, is it?
What do you think?

[Tina]

F*ck. I ate so much last night, I totally blew it. Uhhhh, I'm so disgusting.
Tacos, with cheese and lots of sourcream. Luckily I only had one, but it was huge!
Then I had three pieces of chocolate and lots of chips. I also drank countless glasses of champagne and red wine. Got really drunk and sent texts to both blondie and the date. Didn't hook up with either of them, cause they were both at different parties in another city. Btw, they don't know eachother.
So today I'm gonna be good. I.e; eat nothing at all.
Still haven't stepped on the scale, I'm such a coward.

[Tina]

OMG; I can't wait for tomorrow, I know I'll feel great just as soon as I start the fast. The first day is tough, though, cause that's when you feel hunger. Day two is always easier, day three is a piece of cake! I know I can make ten days, I just need to avoid situations where friends invite me to dinner, or we end up at restaurants..
Probably shouldn't drink either, cause of the fast. I'll try to resist alchohol too. I'm such a saint!
I'll fill you in tomorrow after work.
A lot of action from the date on facebook today, but no phone call. That is just not good enough. I need more!

[nickytml]

Hi Tina

I just read through your journal.. seems were have the same problem friends & family get togethers that aLwayS involve foood!! its soo annnoying.

you are doin really well tho, i wish my jeans would become loose but noo they are still barely zippable and my fat hangs out on the sides ew soooo gross

[Tina]

DAY 1: I'm doing pretty well, considering. Very cold, though, it's raining and freezing here today. Work was okay.
I've had lots of tea and water. I'm really tired after the weekend, didn't get much sleep at all. I think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight. You know; 'she who sleeps, eats nothing'.
Can't wait for tomorrow when it all gets so much easier.
Be strong MINT, we can do it together.
Think maybe I'll pick up some vitamins, to keep me 'healthy' while I fast.

[nashinflash]

I have the best self control in public situations. I can pass up cakes,cookies, pizza etc.... I normally put food on plate take a couple of bites and then try to distract them through talking and throw it away. i also make sure to break my food up into tiny pieces and spread it around. I drop some in a napkin that i keep in my lap when they are not looking. when i am not able to do any of this i just eat a little then say i've already ate and i am not hungry or i am sick. This sometimes works but i still get the stares i really hate it but i am not willing to eat when i am not hungry. i do so much binging on my own in private thats were i need self control in private. plus i really hate eating in front of people i cant stand it i feel like everyone is lookign at me like a pig and at the slop bin.

[ThinMint06]

work will be tough... i work in a resturaunt and i'm always hungry because i work the lunch shift. but i think i can remain calm. well, if you avoid taking a lunch break, not hungry, had a huge omelette for breakfast, already ate an apple... whatever. plus you don't owe anyone an explination they CAN'T MAKE you eat!!!
good luck on day 2!!!

[Tina]

Thank you guys for your good advice! Actually, I've been able to fast at work, simply by working through lunch, and pretending to eat when everyone else is finished. Tomorrow I'm just gonna go out for lunch! Ha ha!
DAY 2: coffee, coffe and more coffe...I'm gonna get heart palpitations soon. Think I'll fill up on water before I go to bed. Can't wait to see how much I'll loose!!! Yay!

Been on a date today, with someone from my friend's work..I didn't fancy him, he was cute but not my type.
BUT- the date called me and wondered how I was doing, and if I maybe wanted to go out with him again! I said yes. So we're hooking up this saturday...I'm excited! He is soooooo fine! I'm gonna play it cool

Back later! You go girls!!!

[nickytml]

good job on day 2 ur doin greattttttttt keep up wit that cofffeee

and yayy for a date

[ThinMint06]

oh tina please stay strong. this is doable. i think today was the saddest day ever. totally failed... i hung on for so long. and then all my work gone.

about to do some tae bo to make up for it

sorry to let you down. still counting day 3 tomorrow... will bus my butt with a work out

[LadyBird]

hi, just popping in to show a little support for your fast! I admire that so much, people who can fast, because I definitely can't, haha. Keep going, it sounds like you're past the hardest part of the fast anyway...day 1. I bet you've lost a couple pounds already!

[Tina]

Thanks ladybird for your encouragement! Even if I'm doing well, it's great having someone supporting you.

DAY 3: another good day, I'm very motivated, it helps with the sunny weather we've been having in Oslo today. Summer's coming soon!
Bought a new bikini today, green and white striped at H&M, and I actually didn't freak out when I looked at myself in the fitting room! That hasn't happened in....one year, I guess.
Have decided not to weigh in before I'm done with the fast, that's wednesday.
I'm shivering right now, cause I'm so cold. But I refuse to adjust the radiator, cause you burn more cals when you're cold!!
Thought about the date all day today!! Mmmmmm
Gonna have some skinnylatte now.

[nickytml]

ohh u purchased a bathing suit! that is super exciting - especially that u enjoyed how u looked in it too. that wont happen to me for awhile. i am so proud of u

and day 3 already wow! i think its a good idea to wait till the end of ur fast before u weigh urself. in case u dont loose on a day (which i highly doubt would happen) but just in case so u dont loose any motivation! but seriously greattt job - i sure as hell couldnt last as long as u

[Tina]

Thanks nickytml, but if I can do it, anybody can! I'm a huge binger, normally. This time is different, though, it's more ana than I've been in years, it's like I'm running on sheer willpower. It's so much more easy to fast when you set a date! Just took my vitamins, I wonder how many cals they are? It doesn't say...
To bed now, back tomorrow.
Big kiss!