Skinny_Chick
Joined: 19 Apr 2007 Posts: 210 Location: USA
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Posted: Sun May 06, 2007 2:02 pm Post subject:
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Thank you Lady! When I came to this forum I always thought I was a fat failure... the support of everyone here makes me believe I can do ANYTHING. I need to believe that, it gives me the strength I could never find to get where I am going on this journey.
I am stuck at 151 this morning.. DAMN rice from last night, couldn't get rid of it all, solid food other than some fruit and veggies makes me really sick anymore. Future hubby is picking up a poker table from my parents at the moment. I think he knows I purge, he said last night that maybe I should get my stomach looked at, because it hurts all the time, when the truth is that most food grosses me out..... if only he understood, but he never will.
We're going to the grocery store when he gets home, if I don't take him with me I'm usually ok.... taking him with me brings home hamburger, chipsand assorted stuff like full fat ranch with bacon ( OMG! ) dressing, things that I either can't imagine eating or I methodically divide the calorie count for 1 mini cookie... ( 22.5 ) but the catch is that he wants me to eat this stuff with him.
So, I will go and buy piles of water, tea, raw veggies, a little fruit, some cup of soup, maybe some 35 cal popcorn, lots of salad and maybe a little diet soda. I tell him alot lately that if he wants to cook something go ahead but if I don't eat it it's ok. If he wants steak let him have it, even if I can't bring myself to eat it. I will happily push lettuce around on a plate to get to where I need to be.
I better get in the shower so I can make sure we don't forget any of my stuff or as future hubby calls them " Diet food " I don't care what he calls it as long as I can have my certain things. As long as I get those I'm ok. Love you all! Lots to do today, maybe I'll be around later.
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