I WANT HELP BUT I DONT KNOW HOW

[98pounds]

i want to recover. im sick of being sick. 6 months spent dieting, i finally get the thinness i desired,...and im still not happy.

i just want my old life back! i need help. i dont know how to get help though without telling my parents or friends or sisters. i dont want to tell anyone. ive kept it a secret for so long. i think that would make the situation worse.

should i tell someone? who should i tell? i just wish there was a 1-800 number i could call and get some sort of treatment over the phone! i need help. i want to be like all the other healthy girls. i want to be normal again.

[lovetodance]

heya - i think u shud definately speak to someone if u wanna recover - this is from the eating disorders association - http://www.edauk.com/Home it looks really good and it says the calls etc r all confidential

Help by phone & e-mail
The United Kingdom helpline numbers are...
Adult Helpline (over 18 years of age) 0845 634 1414
Helpline e-mail service [ EMAIL REMOVED ] [ Click here to know why ]
EDA endeavours to respond to all e-mails within 48 hours

Youthline (up to and including 18 years of age) 0845 634 7650
Youthline e-mail service [ EMAIL REMOVED ] [ Click here to know why ]
EDA endeavours to respond to all e-mails within 48 hours

hope that helps? xxx

[lovetodance]

...........previous post continued lol...! i have just bin lookin on that website and they have a good message board so that mite help as well xxx

[Obdurate]

I am currently anorexic and not really planning on recovering. Since you are would suggest you try find someone who has been anorexic before because only those who have been through the same as you can truly understand and help you out..
If you don't find someone you write down why ana is bad. Make yourself a plan on how to recover. Write down your emotions which hurt you.
Write a pros and cons list. Eventually you will realise if you are doing to right thing and accept it.
I really think that you have become to compulsive about Ana that you need to really give yourself some time and work with your issues with a book that you obviously will keep locked down.

[Bonegirl]

I used to be anorexic. It is possible to recover from this- You can have the best support in the world but if you don't want to change you will never get better.

If you do want to change and want help-

I found salvation from an ED therapist in my home town. I recommend you find a therapist who has had an ED. My therapist and I really clicked and she literally saved my life.

If you do not feel ready to speak to a therapist and you just want someone who has been in a similar expirience feel free to contact me. :
Please excuse the poor spelling, it is a character flaw of mine

[densy88]

i dont understand why someone would not want to recover from anorexia. we've had two anorexics in our family, one was my moms cousin who recovered a long time ago, obviously, coz she's around 35 now and had the disorder when she was a teenager. she was hospitalized and lived off of artificial food and injections of vitamins and stuff coz she couldnt eat normal food. the other was my cousin's cousin who wasnt really related to me but i did consider her part of my close family i guess. she wasnt able to make it though, she passed away around when she was 18 i think..her disorder developed really quickly, i mean i dont remember everything that well cause we werent very close and she was in a different city anyway but i remember she started becoming really skinny when she was like 15 or so.. we had all started to notice she was just losing a lot of weight, nobody knew why though she wouldnt tell anyone anything. her parents were just assuming that shes growing so her body's using all the food for growth and other things and isnt storing it. she was always thin anyway, never overweight but after 15 it just went kind of downhill she became skinnier and skinnier and was eventually hospitalised after a year coz she fainted several times apparently and her parents noticed something was not right. she wasnt sickeningly skinny at that time though, i remember her being really bony but it wasnt the kind of sight that makes u worry u know..but i guess it was deceiving coz she lost more weight rapidly after she was released from the hospital. apparently at that time she just wasnt able to eat anymore. like her stomach rejected food she would puke instantly or just couldnt swallow she was really sick and was hospitalised again for a couple of months i think, and kind of made a recovery but she had already caused immense internal damage. her development had ceased entirely, she had no menstruation and she didnt grow any taller and had very small breasts. after she was released we all thought she was going to recover, at least in the sense that she would eat normally, but not much could be done about the other damage..like her very late periods and ceased development. and i think she had a stomach ulcer or something else. she was doing ok for a while i think, i do remember her gaining some weight so she was at least a little less skinny coz when she was hospitalised for the second time from not being able to eat she was actually pretty scarily skinny, it was really obvious she had a problem. so the weight gain was good it gave everyone a relief. but it was temporary as she started to diet again i think, coz she started to lose weight again or maybe wasnt able to gain more than a certain amount and her body was rejecting food again, she was puking most of the time. it was a period of not knowing what to do coz she would be able to eat a little bit and not more but was slowly losing weight again. after a month or so of her slight recovery and also slight re-dieting, she apparently collapsed while going up the stairs in school which she hadn't gone to for more than a year coz of her illness. she was taken to the hospital but died from heart failure because of the strain she had put on it. the heart gets weaker and weaker when u suffer from anorexia its like the final stage of internal organ damage but thats what had happened to her. sometimes i think if she had stayed in the hospital until full recovery was observed in terms of her eating and if perhaps they got her psychiatric help so she would not diet again, she probably would have survived. but maybe the heart was far too weak for there to ever be full recovery and she may have suffered from heart problems in the future anyway.