it's so hard....

[ThinMint06]

Thanks so much for all the love. I would love a scale! There is one at the gym, like in the doctor's office... a little scary! I'm going to step on it soon. I'm a little afraid.

Went to the gym today. Ate a sandwich. No junk food. Had some slim fast. Then I had some Halloween candy. Just a little, but still. I'm a little upset with myself.

I called my dad because it's his birthday, and was friendly. I guess he has a new girlfriend and knows a lot about me. It pisses me off because everyone thinks he's such an active parent. But I see him more now (once in the past what? 5 weeks) now that I live 4 hours away than I did when I was 40 minutes away. Errrr. I still want it to work out because he's my dad.

I'm not eating tomorrow. I should do really well. I hope! My goal is to not eat anything at all and go to the gym.

*Have a great day tomorrow!*

[Skinny Chick78]

Would love to get you a scale, apparently I could drive it to you not ship it lol, you are that close to me Glad you are doing well, keep it up! We will be thin

[ThinMint06]

Hi girls.

Went to the gym, spent half an hour on the eliptical. I jumped on the scale. Nothing. I'm pretty bummed! I'm trying to keep the water in my body, constantly drinking. But no difference. I'll just have to cut back even more.

My roommate won't be home until late, so I won't have to have any dinner with her. I have class tonight, so I'll spend some time there where I can't eat. No comelo. As my profesora has taught me.

I hope I can start seeing these results. I can feel it, but I want to see it too. I'm going home in two weeks. I want to lose about 5 pounds. I know that's not a lot, but it's better than nothing. I would love more though My boyfriend is going to go CRAZY when he sees me. I know he thinks I'm beautiful, but he'll be so amazed when he sees the body I COULD have! No more FattyPants!

Water water water.

I just brushed, flossed and rinsed, I love a clean mouth! It makes me want to keep it that way. No candy!

I hope I can make some strides in this weight loss. I want to lose 3 pounds by Thursday. I WILL DO IT!!!! Come hell or high water, I WILL be thin.

GOOD LUCK LADIES! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!

[Skinny Chick78]

A 2 day liquid only fast might be your answer, I dropped 2 pounds in 2 days, but holy cow be careful with the chicken broth. The salt in it bloated me BAD this morning. Or more veggies than anything else. Just my thoughts for you. Love ya! Just call me liquid girl lol!

[max]

hehe I'm in the exact same boat as you... Im dating a guy in CA and Im in NY.
It's really been motivating actually... having that date he arrives looming.. 37 days to be exact. The past 2 months I swear all Ive been doing is fasting, getting butterflies, making massive hair appointments and dentist appt:P

When's yours coming to visit?

[runnergirl]

I know how you feel, I finally get to see my boyfriend this weekend over fall break! All I can think about is how I want to look thinner than the last time I saw him. Hearing his voice on the phone has been my recent thinspiration, which is kinda weird, but it works!

[DollyAna]

hey good on you for going to the gym hun,stay positive;you'll get there...

[Skinny Chick78]

Break out the soup girl! And the snow suit lol! It's supposed to snow this weekend. Love ya!

[ThinMint06]

I am really sad. My boyfriend thinks I'm being unreasonable with my thoughts and goals. He is so one sided. I guess that's great that he accepts me, but I wish he would support me too. Everything is going wrong. I'm not losing, I can't stop the hunger, and I want to eat so badly!

Soup sounds like a plan. Tomorrow I'll have some Progresso and try to START losing again.

Ah! So much homework! I have midterms this week, too. oh, and the snow WHY WHY WHY?? I love to snuggle up in the covers and eat when it's cold. Nope. I'm going to try to drink my coffee black, too from now on. Every little choice. No mayo, no cheese. It'll happen.

I guess I can see where he wants to help. "That's what you said a while ago... maybe if you didn't go so long without food..." He doesn't understand.

[Skinny Chick78]

I think there is an unwritten rule that boyfriend's aren't supposed to get it, instead they are supposed to drive us nuts. Mine is a truck driver, therefore he's not home a whole lot during the week, which is ok, but on the weekends he usually wants to go out, which would be ok except it involves food and alcohol, the boy can eat and the boy can drink lol. He doesn't get it but lately everytime he sees me he tells me I took smaller even if the scale doesn't agree... Does yours know about your ed? I'm thinking mine might catch on. Hope not though. Definately soup season here. I love the Progresso Vegetable.... mmmmm. Have to sleep, need to work in the morning! Love ya!

[ThinMint06]

Hi everyone!!

I went to the gym, spent half an hour on the eliptical and drank a lot of water. I weighed in, but I wieghed two pounds more... I know that logically it's the 3 or 4 bottles of water that I'd had while I was there... but I was still angry because I went with my roommate and she made fun of me.

I made some coffee. I won't eat dinner with her, this is easier than I thought. She thinks I'm being a bitch. Maybe I am. I don't care anymore. She doesn't have to like me. I do have to be skinny!!

I have a ton of homework. I hate school. It's so hard to not freak out about my classes and feel like I'm not going to make it. Fuck school. I'll get it done... chill out!!

I am hungry. I won't eat. Fuck food.

[Skinny Chick78]

*kisses* Are you stressed hon? Have some tea, and relax. Screw the dinner thing... food is over rated. Tea will calm your pains especially peppermint tea. Peppermint is a great pain killer. We WILL get there!! Love ya!

[ThinMint06]

Studying and writing HUGE papers is taking a tole on my brain. I hope I get A's!! Arg! So much work. I guess that's why it's college.

Things to do tomorrow:
Breakfast: A slim-fast
Study for Spanish midterm *Really study*
Hit the gym. HARD!!!! Weigh in- no water before
Go to Spanish lab for so extra help
Go to my classes
Dinner: Some soup and tea mmmmmm
Watch Grey's Anatomy

Thanks for all the love. I am stressed. I should take up yoga.

[Skinny Chick78]

Soup and Grey's Anatomy sounds like a total winner! Lol my aunt calls Grey's Anatomy... Grey Academy. It doesn't matter how many times I correct her. Anyway's, try to relax a little. Yoga might be a good idea, I've been thinking about it lately too. Love ya girl, keep it up!

[DollyAna]

hey chick i love that "I DO HAVE TO BE SKINNY", yes you go girl,you keep that in the top of you're mind & never forget it till you reach your goal because you ROCK!!!!!