Back to basics...

[~Jo]

I started ana about a year ago as the result of a diet which I got too happy restricting until I was eating an apple a day and fasting some days. I lost close to 60lb. It was for a guy whom I thought I loved deeply.

I ADORED the new me, I was so thin. Everyone was so envious. I was still 135lb yet I looked so thin due to being tall and I'm not petite-framed anyway.

However me and this guy split up, I learned the binge/restrict, I don't know why I never did it the first time, I was, quite literally, scared to eat I guess.
I gained 14lb. When I went on holiday, I lost another 7lb. When this guy was considering getting back with me. During this week ana returned as strong as ever. I looked at food and felt ill. However, I think it was due to being occupied all day. I eat for cravings/boredom. Though my cravings were never that bad on holiday.

Though it seemed I was just being played with and that 7lb quickly returned.

My mother found out about ana the first time around, so she monitors what I eat now. Though from next wednesday I will be out the house for college 6am-6pm.

I feel so fucking HUGE. Plus I have to wear my own clothes for college. Which don't fit too well atm.

I want to get down to 130. I'm currently 150. 20lb. I want to lose at least 7 before I go to college.

Before I would look at chocolate and feel sick to the stomach when I thought of the calories it contained. Yet now I think 'Mmmm'. Why is this? Does anyone know? I dearly want ana back.

What is the fastest way to lose the weight by the time I start college? Because, with enough willpower, I will just fast then.

Pro plus + diet coke?

I will write any and all progress here. Stay strong all. <3 ~

Thanks for reading.

[DollyAna]

hiya jo,bit of a strain on the eyes trying to read the pink writing but welcome here hun. xxx

[~Jo]

Sorry dear. I'll write in black then. =P
1pm and not eaten yet bar pro plus though it's not much progress might aswell write it lol.

Also took some pictures of myself today, so I can do before - after. ^^

Thanks for the reply! x

[DollyAna]

keep up the good work bud,you're doing well if you haven't eaten much today.

[~Jo]

8pm almost, won't eat for the rest of today. Took some photos to compare. Hehehe. ^^
I never understand why I look so thin lying down compared to standing up.
Makes me sick to think of how much thinner I was. Ah well. :S






I look like a sausage from the side. :/

[DollyAna]

you're very brave to post the pics,it takes a lot of courage,courage that i don't have myself!