Carpe Diem

[AlicetheCamel]

Aw, that's so sweet - I'm really happy for you. Maybe his love will even let you love yourself a bit more

And hey, I bet you burn loads of calories snowboarding in the cold!!! x

[Tina]

I had the best date I've ever had in my entire life last night. It was perfect, I'm so excited! We went out to dinner, and had sushi, and we talked and laughed the entire time. After that we hung out at a small cafe in the city, and then he took me home and we made out in his car -I felt like I was 16 again! Ha ha! I'm so silly in love right now, it's ridiculous! Five minutes after he left me to go home, he called me from his car and said he had something to tell me. My heart raced like crazy; then he said 'I'm falling in love with you'. I feel so lucky, like it can't be true. He is just to good for me, it's amazing he feels the same way!
Sorry, I'll stop gushing over him right now. It's saturday and we're gonna spend the day together, so I better get ready, have to look my best!
Have decided not to think about food/dieting this weekend, I'll worry about it on monday. Have a great weekend you guys!!!!

[Tina]

I had the greatest weekend ever. Spent the whole of saturday and sunday with him. I'm so in love!
I had a lot of food when I was with him, so now I need to restrict severely again. Only 300 cals today. Will keep it up untill friday, then we have a new date. I can't wait! This week he's away on a work trip. I miss him so much!!!
I think I've gained. Haven't got the balls to look at the scale.

[ThinMint06]

love? woah baby you're in overdrive! lol you get your man-- and keep him!! he sounds fabulous restricting to 300? i will too tomorrow. i'll tell you how it goes

[Tina]

I'm still in love! AND I'm losing! When in love, who needs food?
He is so sweet and kind, a nice guy, just like I've always wanted but never really had. I really hope this lasts...I feel like it could, but...you never know. It's scary!
anyways, I feel great and foodwise it's going really well also. Last week I kept it under 300 cals a day without even thinking about binging. This weekend i've had three meals a day, since i've been with the boy. But i've tried restricting somewhat and ordered salad when we went out to lunch. Starting tomorrow i'll go back to 300 cals a day. I have to restrict the days i'm not with him, so i can eat when i'm WITH him.

[Tina]

YAY
Zero calories today!!! And no desire to eat.
Only water and black coffee.
We're planning to go snowboarding this weekend, with friends (his/mine)! I can't wait! I want so much from him, I have to contain myself. So it's good to have days when I try to focus on restricting and exercising, that way I keep my mind off the thought of him. He just sent me a text that said: 'I'm so lucky to have met you!' Ahhhhhh, he's so cute. It's cheasy, I know, I just can't help myself! Please ignore me. All my girlfriends are fed up with me talking about him all the time. Sorry!
I'll try fasting untill friday, just to make me feel good about this weekend -there's probably gonna be a lot of food

[Tina]

Fasting and doing well. A bit dizzy just now, but since i'm on the sofa, it doesn't matter. Gonna relax today, no working out, have to save my strength for this weekend. There's gonna be a lot of outdoors activities, I think.
Oslo is sunny today and about 10 degrees, spring is coming! Can't wait for summer. Then I'll be skinny AND have a boyfriend (i.e, if it all turns out the way I want)!
So far zero calories today, and that's the way I like it.

[Tina]

I just noticed something: I've been coming here for a year now!
I've lost over 10 kgs but I still feel just as fat.

[ThinMint06]

usually the bf diet kills ((like me--) bleh.

but you're rocking it!!

how much have you lost so far? how was your vay-k?

[Tina]

Damn. I've gained 2 kgs. How is that even possible? Probably cause my metabloic rate now is so slow that I get fat just by LOOKING at food.
i've had dinner with the bf three times this week, days that I had planned on fasting. So I guess i screwed that up. I'll try fasting next week. I'm spending the entire weekend with him, so there is no chance in hell I'm gonna make it without food. I SO don't want him to know about my ED, I feel like it's more important than ever to hide it. I really want this boy, I have never felt like this before, like it's meant to be! I think I might love him someday...
So: next week: new fast.
This weekend: love!

2 kgs! I can't believe it.

[Tina]

I'm back!
And more in love than ever! We are so happy together...I'm on cloud nine these days. I'm with him almost every day, and we have such a good time. I never thought this could happen to me, that I could be THIS happy. It's too much! What have i done to deserve this?!?
This week foodwise: fasting mon-tue-wed (0 cals), then a lot of food yesterday cause it was the boyfriend's birthday!! I gave him concert tickets. Today: fasting again. Tomorrow: huge party to celebrate the boy, so there will probably be some food, but I've decided no more than 500 cals! Sunday, I don't know. It's hard when I'm with him, I don't want him to know!!! At least not yet.
We've made plans for this summer; we're going to California for three weeks together! I cant' wait! I've never been to the States, so it's gonna be a thrill for me! Need to save money so I can go shopping
But I wanna look skinny for those summer photos, so I have to work hard when I'm not with him. Ahhh give me strength!!!!!
Btw, I've lost the 2 kgs again, so I'm back where I started. Phew

[Tina]

The birthdayparty was a blast! I had so much fun, and I didn't eat that much. He loved his present, and told me he loves me a lot!
We have a date tomorrow, I can't wait to see him again!
0 cals today. Good girl!

[nickytml]

helllooo hunnie still inlove?

[Tina]

Hi guys!
Have thought about posting here again for a while. Something has come up, which makes it hard for me to keep dieting: I'm pregnant. I lost my period and thought maybe I'd lost it due to ana, but no...every test told me the same thing: I'm about to be a mom.
We are happy and speechless, but we know we want to keep it, and I feel confident that we're gonna make it together. He is the sweetest boyfriend I've ever had. We're planning our summer in the states together, and I can't wait!
This is why I have to leave this forum. I want to give my baby the best possible start in life, so I've started eating again, and have made a day-to-day plan over what to eat, so that I know I have enough. After all this time with almost no food, I have NO idea what eating normal means anymore.
My man still don't know about my ED, and my hope is that he never will.
I'm due in january.
I wish all you girls the best of luck, and hope you reach your goals, whatever they may be. Maybe I'll come back when it's time to lose that babyweight. I'll miss you.
Love, Tina

[nickytml]

Wow I am soooooo proud of u and soo happy for u! congratulations on going to become a mommy