Watashi ga watashi de iru kagiri

[sailorv]

How many times and I going to leave and start again on this forum? Anyway, hi to everyone again, all those who never left. I am no longer vegan as of this week, and I have gained so much weight trying not to care. But I find myself caring so much that it depresses me. So if I want to have a blow-out day once in a while, I will. Because it shows that thing doesn't control me all the time. I can break free sometimes. And that is reassuring.
Anyway, starting tomorrow, I shall resume exercise and suchlike. During my exam period I will have to eat stuff, otherwise my stomach will growl loudly during 2 1/2 hour exams, while I sit there in embarrassment. Lots of water and salad. And a wedge of cheese for the protein. Maybe some energy drinks.
I've realised that I am a crap faster. Which means if I want to fast, I should not try right now, but when I am adjusted to eating less. For now I am going to eat little and often, and set a limit of 600 cals for tomorrow (because I have been eating so much, any less might shock my system and trigger a binge).
Ok, so wish me luck. The new non-vegan sailorv. Hopefully here for the long run this time.

[omnifabulous]

Yo sailorv! You may have noticed alot of people migrated off here when the other part of the forum shit down so if you want to join us in the other forum chani made you can, we are starting a monthly challenge this may it should be awesome! http://livingwithed.yourbb.nl/