Screaming in silence..

[ashling]

HE HE so true omnifabulous...

I hooked up with Kev the other nyt again he is soo sweet..
We were just sitng there kissing and then he kept offering me some of his food and alchol..
I cud fell his look burning into me and then he bent dwn and kissd my cheek.. He even gave me his number and took mine bt dunt wnt to txt him cause i was drunk and hopefuly i wil see him again soon..
I tink i am fallin in love iwth him bt he doesnt knw it and i knw he nt into having a relationship...Well i tnk so..


Its my mates birthday mara shud bt gud anther reason to get watsed to into alchol at th moment wud say i drink bt 4/7 days a week..
Abd most of them arent just casual drinks there fucking binges..
Then its my birthday like in two weks and my mates wnt to stay at mine i havnet let them come to my house in a year... i knw weird bt i always make up excuses i cnt realy explain why bt i cnt and wnt have pole here.. bt i cnt get outa this un and seriously panicking...

Purged twice today and then took into vodka and wine that my mum had.. a lil tipsey nw the alchol is htting me beetr cause i have nutin in my stomch love tis feling bt i cnt keep doing this.
I hate the person i am when i am drunk bt nt as much as then un when i am sober...