My private journey.

[itsjustme]

I went to the gym today. I did 2 miles on the treadmill. Normally 2 miles takes 30 minutes..it took 26 today. I walked at 4.0 and jogged at a faster speed than normal..5.4 this time. I walked half mile, then jogged half mile..totalling 2 miles. I strength trained...all the machines..3 sets of each. That took about an hour.

[itsjustme]

OMFG!!! I couldn't resist getting on the scale this morning. I just felt lighter..you know. I hopped on there..and guess what it said. Now get this..I was 166.6 on Sunday's weigh in. I weigh 162.8!!! I got on there first thing this morning. I checked it about 4 times. It still stayed the same. That is 3.8 lbs lost and today is just Wednesday. OMG!! If all else fails...and the scale is lieing to me...I'll for sure be at my goal weight this week of 164 on my "official" weigh in day which is Sunday. I'm soooo excited. I can't believe those numbers. Somebody pinch me! I was hoping after my .4 loss two weeks ago..followed by my 1.2 loss this past week...that the scale would be a little bit nicer to me. So..it's either being nicer to me, or tricking me...one of the two. So...we'll see come Sunday. But I do feel lighter. This should definitely keep me motivated to keep going to the gym. Well of course I went to the gym today...after that weigh in. I just had to. I did 30 min. on the elliptical. I then lifted my weights..the usual...3 sets of everything..then the 100 twists. I also did 2 exercises with free weights for my arms. 3 sets each. I was just trying something different. Hoping it will help the back of my arms. After strength training I hopped on the treadmill and did 1 mile. It took me like 12 minutes to do instead of the usual 15. I jogged at 5.4-5.7 for half a mile, walked .25 mile, then jogged the last .25 mile. That was it for the day. I have already gotten in my minimum 3 days of working out for the week. So anything else that I do will be extra..and boy do I need to do the extra!! So far today I've only eaten a special k bar. I ate that right before going to the gym at about 8:00. It's now 11:30 and I'm ready to eat..I'm hungry. I'm not sure what I will have though. Maybe some veggies..maybe tuna. I don't know..I'll see. Well..I guess that's it for now. I'm ready for this week to be over so that my weight can be official..and I can change my ticker. I'm ready to get this weight off of me.

[constance]

That is awesome, congratulations!!

Losing in spurts...that is exactly what I did, too! I remember when I started I would lose some good pounds, then it would be less than a pound or the same...drove me insane. Just when I was about to go out of my mind, I would lose a chunk. I think your body is adjusting to the loss, realizing that everything is okay, then lets more of it go.

Kudos to you!!!

constance

[itsjustme]

Thank you Constance!!!
Of course I hopped on the scale again this morning...needed to be reassured that my weight was real. Yesterday the scale said 162.8...well today it said 161.8!!!! That's down 4.8 lbs since Sunday. I'm beginning to think it's real. Still gotta wait til Sunday though....just 3 more days to go. This means I've made my first goal weight of 165 this week!!!! My next goal weight is 155. I don't know how long it'll take to get down to 155, or what my next goal weight will be for the week. If these numbers are right, it'll be hard to drop weight next week. I'll just have to wait it out and decide on Sunday. I am getting so close to being out of the 60's. I can't wait!!! Can't wait!! Can't wait!! I'm guessing I'll hit the gym again today. I don't see why not. It seems to be working for me. I haven't had anything to eat just yet. I don't feel like making anything..I feel like having something quick. Ok..that's all for now. 150's here I come!!!!

[itsjustme]

So...I went to the gym today. That's 4 days for me this week!! I'm so proud. Now maybe I can get in an extra day to make it 5 days. I did 5 days last week. I might even go back to the gym this evening, because I have some spare time. I don't know though. Anyhow...I ran a mile!! I finally decided to run a whole mile! I jogged at 5.4-5.7. It took me 11 minutes and like 5 seconds. I was just proud that I finished the whole mile. It's easier to do if you're not looking at the time, although I was looking at the time. So after I ran that mile..I walked 2 additional miles at 4.1-4.2. It took 40 minutes to do the 3 miles. I then did my stomach, back, twists. After that I got on the crossramp for 30 minutes. For some reason I don't really like that machine. I managed to stay on it somehow, although I wanted to jump off of it right away. I'd rather just do the elliptical, but my goal was to do something different to trigger my body or whatever. I think I'm gonna get on the bike next time I go. I haven't done that any. Anyhow..so far I've had a special k bar at 8:00 and an apple at 10:25. It's now 11:35. I'll eat something else in about an hour or so. I'm working tomorrow, so no gym for me in the morning. I gotta go out of town again this weekend. I'm leaving Saturday morning, and will be back Sunday night. I think I might take my scale with me so I can weigh Sunday morning. I don't know though. I still gotta stay strong this weekend. I can't mess everything up just because I"m out of town. I'll be sure to pack plenty of snacks for myself so that I'm not tempted to eat what others are eating. Ok..that's it for now.

[itsjustme]

I went back to the gym today!! Go me!! I did 3 miles on the treadmill. I ran the first half mile at 5.4-5.5. Then the other laps I alternated walking & running. It took 40 minutes to complete. I then got on the elliptical for just 15 minutes. That was all I did. It felt good being there again. I wasn't stressing about how much I was going to do this second time around at the gym. Anything that I did was beneficial..so I kept that in mind. I started to run a full mile again...like I did earlier today..but I didn't. Didn't wanna just wear myself out too bad. But like I said, it felt good being in the gym for a 2nd time. I've had close to 700 cals today. I just got done munching on some cereal out of the box. I probably ate 2 servings just estimating, didn't feel like measuring. But still that only brought me to 683 for the day. I haven't been drinking enough water still. I don't know what it's gonna take for me to drink more water. I suck in that department. I do drink it when I workout..but that's about it. When I get home I don't think twice about grabbing water to drink..I just don't drink anything. I need to do better!!! I keep saying that but haven't done anything about it. I won't be able to go to the gym in the morning. I don't think I'm going to go in the evening either. I have to get ready to go out of town..got plenty of stuff I need to do. Sunday is almost here. I gotta stay strong.

[itsjustme]

I couldn't resist...so I got on the scale this morning. I weigh 160.8 this morning!!! That's a 5.8lb weight loss this week..and the week isn't over. Scale...if you are lieing to me...you are gonna be in some deep trouble. I still got 2 more days to go...to hang on to this number. I hope I can do it. If not...a pound or 2 added on to that will make me happy still. But I soooo hope it stays the same. I hope, I hope, I hope. I don't know though, because I doubt I'll be back in the gym before Sunday. Ok..I'm off...gotta go to work. Today should be a good day.

[constance]

You are on FIRE girl!!!

Wowwwweeeee!! How awesome!!

I do not think the scale is lying at all....
You have been eating low calorie..
and working your butt off, literally, at the gym....
that can only mean one thing...
A great loss like that!!!

Good job!

[itsjustme]

Thank you so much Constance!

This is still Friday's entry. I ended up at the gym today. That makes 5 days in a row..and 2 times on Thursday might I add. Today was really quick, spur of the moment, they were about to close. I only did 30 min on the elliptical, then I did my back and stomach machines..3 sets. I did both thigh/hip machines..3 sets. I got done really fast. I don't know what made me go to the gym. Today was a busy day for me, and I honestly needed to be doing something else other than the gym. But somehow..I ended up there..even if only for that short period of time. Well..I'm going out of town in the morning...I'll be back Sunday evening sometime. So..I hope everyone does well this weekend...including myself. I hope my weigh in goes well. That's all for now.

[itsjustme]

I'm back!!! I had a nice time out of town.

Well..I did not stick to my normal eating habits this weekend. Here's the thing. I packed plenty of snacks to eat..apples, plums, 100 cal popcorn, special k bars..stuff that I could easily get to. In the hotel there wasn't a fridge, but a microwave downstairs. We weren't even in the hotel much.
Anyhow..the way down I was fine..just snacking on my usual stuff. Well...the people that were with me were hungry..we were in a theater..food was expensive there...blah blah..we're all broke. Anyhow..when they were hungry..I gave them my food...they were kids anyway...so can't let them go hungry. They didn't just waste my food..they actually enjoyed it. But..that made my my lil stash get lower and lower. Anyhow..I had snacked well all the way until we made it back to the hotel. For some reason my mouth had been exremely dry that afternoon/evening..and even water wasnt doing the trick. Well..it made me want to eat something to get rid of the dryness. So..I did..still my snacks...but they were getting low. Well..I ordered them food...and nothing for me. I ended up eating off of their plates. So..I had some fries..and about 4 chicken tenders and a bite of a hot wing. This was all after I had got done eating like 2 apples, a plum, and my popcorn. While eating it, I didn't feel bad. One of the kids that knows I'm watching my weight was being hard on me. She was like..you're gonna gain 4 pounds after eating that. In my mind I knew I wouldn't actually gain 4 pounds...but it was funny to hear because thats how a dieters mind works from time to time. In a way I was kinda relieved to eat it. No more thinking..now how long can I go without messing up my groove. I didn't really mess up my groove..I just had something to eat that wasn't the norm for me..well that hasn't been the norm for the last 6 weeks. The fries..I enjoyed..the tenders..could have been better. Ha. Oh..before that..we went to Burger King...and all I got was a side salad. I was sooo mad because the only dressing they have is lite..no fat free...and that was 120 cals. So either I had to eat that nasty lettuce all by itself..or throw away cals by eating it with the dressing. I still was feeling thirsty..not thirsty for water though..that didn't do the trick...so..I did eat the salad..with like 3/4 the pack of dressing. I didn't even finish the salad. Felt bad just wasting cals on dressing. I don't know how many special k bars I ate yesterday. I was keeping track..then lost count because I kept sharing with people. So..Saturdays cal count..I don't know.

Now..Sunday..today...I ate breakfast at the hotel. I ate eggs and an orange. Then at the theater I had some popcorn. They only season it with salt..not butter, so I don't guess it was that bad. I think I had just 1 special k bar and some pretzels. On the drive home I just wanted something in my mouth..so I had gummy bears. Sucked on them..made them last..and some werthers originals. Since I've been back home I've had a big bowl of cereal. I think that's it for the day. I sooo hated being off track..not knowing my cal intake. I was soo ready to be back home so that I knew for sure how many cals everything has before I eat it. I know this might sound crazy....but I sooooo can't wait to eat my big plate of veggies...that get me full at only 75 cals. I am completely serious...not kidding. I missed my veggies. I feel comfortable eating that. That's a good feeling. I know that sometimes when you screw up..it just makes you want to throw in the towel. Well for me this time...it didn't have that affect. I am soooo gonna continue going strong just as before.

Well..I definitely don't feel 160.8 anymore. You know how you can just feel when you've lost. Well, whatever I lost...I don't feel that big of a loss anymore. But hey..I'll lose it next time. Today..Sunday...is my weigh in day..but since I was out of town..and didn't take my scale..and I definitely need to use my morning weight..I'm going to do it tomorrow. I sooooo hope I'm at my 164 goal at least. PLEASE!!!!!

Today I've been coughing and my throat just won't stay clear. I try and clear my throat and something's hung..hurts my throat to cough. I still have dry mouth. I hope I don't get any worse.

Well, that's my weekend. I gotta weight in the morning. I better make 164 or I will be pissed!!!! I work at 11 so I'm probably gonna hit the gym beforehand. Ok..that's it for now. I might think of something else.

[itsjustme]

Oh..I know...I can't believe 6 whole weeks is up!!!! I've come a long way. 6 weeks ago..I didn't think I'd be where I am. Keep going...keep going!!!

[itsjustme]

Yes, Yes, Yes!!!! 163.0 this morning. I'll take that. That is my official weight for this weigh in. That's down 3.6 lbs for the week. I'm soo glad!! You have no idea. I made my goal for the week...plus I made my first goal weight of 165...beat it by 2 lbs!!!! Today will definitely be a good day for me. I feel re-energized. That's 4.8 lbs loss in 2 weeks. That's a pretty good number. So..in total I've lost 19.8 lbs in 6 weeks. It sounds good when I put it like that.

I do feel sick this morning..not like I'm going to die..but I woke up this morning and my throat/mouth is dry...throat hurts. I hope it doesn't interfere with my day or get any worse.

I'm not going to the gym this morning before work..I'm gonna wait til later afternoon/evening. My back is feeling achey. Gonna see if I can get rid of that this morning..and not hurt it worse at the gym.

So..my goal for this week is 160. I don't know if I'll be able to pull anymore big numbers...but let's see if I can do 3 lbs this week. 160...here I come. I'm so glad I get to change my ticker today.

[constance]

Congratulations! I bet you will even be down 1-2 lbs tomorrow morning if you drink your water today. After a higher carb, higher calorie weekend...your body will naturally be retaining water. If you drink lots today, you will flush it out.

constance

[itsjustme]

I coughed and coughed yesterday...throat feels like crap..and sneezed all day. It sucks!! I woke up this morning feeling pretty crappy too. After sending my child off to school I took some liquid medicine..the crappy kind that sucks. Well..it knocked me out for the rest of the morning/afternoon. I slept and slept..finally got out of bed at 1:30 pm. And how sad is this..my first thought was...hmmm..I slept a long time...means I skipped eating. How crazy am I? I feel a tiny bit better..but everything is just dry. Feel like I'm getting a headache. So..I ate a bowl of cereal..2 servings worth..220 cals so far today. Right now I don't have the energy to do anything. I still gotta get in my minimum 3 days per week in at the gym. Looks like I'm gonna have to kick ass the end part of this week to make it. I just feel crappy right now though. I guess that's it for now..I'll check back later.

[constance]

Sorry to hear you are sick. Two of my kids seem to be coming down with something now too...this is the time of year for it!
Hang in there and take care of yourself.

constance