My private journey.

[constance]

I just wanted to encourage you.....you are doing great!!!

Getting used to cutting back takes some time....then you can focus on the types of food you are taking in. I notice you are liking the carbs in the form of granola bars...I love those too...but if you want to give yourself a good jumpstart, try to keep the carbs to a minimum. You will see things move even quicker!!

I gotta take my own advice on this...I bought over 20 boxes of granola bars because they were on sale (I have kids) and I have been dipping into them a little too much lately!!

Keep up the terrific work!

constance

[itsjustme]

Constance...Thank you for the encouragement. I really appreciate it. And very much so need it. Thanks for the advice about the granola bars. Wow...20 boxes, it must have been an awesome sale!! Thanks again.

Last night before going to bed I ate a twizzler, a mini one though, like what they give out for halloween. I love those things. Only had the one. My child got it from school yesterday, so it was left out while cleaning out her backpack. Ha. I also had a jolly rancher. Didn't feel bad at all for eating either. Go me!
I got on the scale this morning, couldn't resist. I'm 174.6. Couldn't believe it. Today is what, Wednesday? I should be able to hit my 172.4 goal by Sunday, I'm sure. I hope, at least. I'm getting closer to being out of the 70's. I can't wait, can't wait. I was in a hurry this morning, had to work. At the last minute I grabbed a 100 cal pack cheese nips. I didn't eat them in the car, I was too busy finishing getting dressed. I ate them at about 900 today, only half the pack. I had planned on bringing my lunch, but I was running behind, so I had to eat cafeteria food. I ate off the salad bar. My salad was small, probably a cup worth. Only had lettuce, like 1 tomato slice, and a lil itty bitty thing of shredded cheese. The cheese came in little bitty cups, like the cups you squirt your own ketchup in at fast food places. I had ff ranch dressing w/it. The pack was 35 calories. I didn't even use the whole pack. I had steamed veggies on the side and some raw baby carrots. I drank water. I soo wished I could have had some tea. But oh well. It wasn't really a thought at that moment, but it is now. Ha. That's good to know. About 2 hours after lunch I ate the rest of my cheese nips. It's now 400 and I need a lil something to eat. Not sure what I'll have. I feel pretty thirsty right now. Maybe some water will do the trick. I definitely haven't had enough water today. I'm gonna join the gym today..UGGH. I know I'll have even better results though when I work out, so I don't know what I'm hesitating for. Ok...that's it for now I guess. 174.6 today...I'm getting there.

[omnifabulous]

Good luck at the gym man! Its great motivation to go, esp in the morning and when you see it takes like 20 mins of hard work on the cross trainer to burn the same amount you drink in 10 mins out of a can of soda you really start watching what you eat. It really helps for me and it makes you feel generally more healthy and better about yourself.

[itsjustme]

Thanks a lot Omni!!

OMG...I went to the freakin' gym today. My first time in forever. When I walked in I felt like turning around and going home..literally. I got on the treadmill not really knowing what all I was going to do, or for how long. I ended up doing 3 miles on the treadmill. Took 44 min. and some change. So...45 min on the treadmill. I walked the first mile. The 2nd mile, I jogged 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile. The 3rd mile, I jogged 1/2 mile, walked 1/2 mile. I sooo figured I'd be ready to die at 1/4 mile jogging, but I continued on. So...in the end..that made me pretty proud. Then I got on the crossramp for 30 minutes. When I got home, I was tired. For a first day back, all I wanted to do was get in the gym..and do something. I accomplished that. I definitely felt hungrier today. Gotta make sure I stay on track even when I'm hungrier than usual. I'm going out of town this weekend. I sooo hope I can stay on track. Gosh..I'll be so darn pissed if I screw up big. 3 more days til I hope I weigh in at 172.4. Gosh I better!!!! And dang..I can't even weigh in til Sunday evening. I won't be back from out of town until then. BUMMER.

[max]

DUDE!!

HIGH FIVE TO not turning around and leaving the gym!!!! WOOT!!! YAY!!!!


I totally wouldve turned around.

keep it up!!!!

[iheartkeira]

Gosh I am really rooting for you! I really want you to do this! I am in exactly the same boat, except I am on day 1! Always the hardest.

You have done perfectly. Congrats!

IHK x

[itsjustme]

Max....it was soooo hard not turning around..soooo hard. I mean..I didn't have anyone to answer to but myself, right. I would have just pushed it off to another day..and that day would have never come. I am sooo proud I stayed. Thanks for the congrats!!! I need it.

Iheart........Thank you, thank you, thank you. I really need the support. I know it's just day 1 for you, but before long, it'll be the end of your first week. Hang in there. It's worth it.

Well I'm about to go out of town in about an hour. Good thing is, there is a fitness center there. I don't know if that's good or bad really. Well, it's good...but will I really use it. Gosh, I hope I get up the energy to go. I will have no excuse for not making it to 172.4. I've had 100 cal popcorn and a granola bar today. 190 cals so far today. Gonna eat more than that today for sure. Especially if I do some exercising. I don't know if I'll be able to access the internet or not, but if not, I'll miss it here. Hope everyone has a nice weekend. STAY STRONG!!!

[max]

[constance]

itsjustme....how did you do while out of town???

constance

[itsjustme]

I'm back!! The weekend went very well. I'm really proud of myself for not screwing up. I must admit...it was hard as hell. I mean, being in a different place, there were soooo many places to eat that we don't have at home. At the mall, the food court...OMG...food looked and smelled delicious. Any kind of food that you wanted. In my lil town, there's nothing to choose from in the mall. Well....I sat there in the food court...and guess what I ate....A PLATE OF VEGGIES..3 DIFFERENT VEGGIES!!! While the other people at my table ate delicious fattening stuff. I think what helped me through it is the fact that I was actually eating something myself and not just watching them eat their yummy food. I brought crap loads of my own food to eat while at the hotel. I went down to breakfast both mornings and only had a very small bowl of cereal with skim milk each time. They had a very nice breakfast too. Could have had waffles, toast, sausage, biscuits, grits, oatmeal, just whatever. It smelled yummy. The folks that were with me ate it, and I just looked. They know I'm trying to lose weight so they didn't give me a hard time or anything, or ask me if I wanted some of what they were eating. I even had to pass up KFC. I went to the drive-thru for them, nothing for myself. I took it back to the hotel and just nibbled on some of my snacks. It smelled so yummy. I am absolutely proud of myself. I was actually thinking of this forum while gone. I wanted to come back with good news to you all. It sucks coming back with bad news. Makes you feel like a failure. As far as the fitness center that was supposed to be at the hotel. How about it was freakin' a few miles away at a gym. I would have had to drive down and take my room key with me. That's false advertisement I tell ya. I didn't go to the gym at all. Just wasn't up to it when I found out I had to drive there. I really was pumped about going. I had packed gym clothes for 2 days and everything. Soon as I got to my room I called to the front desk to ask where the fitness room was. Then she told me that crap. So...that part sucked. But it wasn't soo bad if you know what I mean.

I got home late Sun. evening so I wasn't about to weigh myself. I took my weekly pics and looked at them, compared them to my starting pic and 1st week pic. I can definitely tell a difference. Makes me want to keep on going.

I hopped on the scale this morning instead. My goal was 172.4. Well...I didn't meet that goal. I weigh 174.2 instead. Kinda odd to hear me say this, but I'm still proud, not disappointed. Of couse I would have liked to have seen a lower weight...but hey...that's 2.2 lbs loss this week. So..in total, in 2 weeks I am down 8.6 lbs. From 182.8 to 174.2. I'm gonna keep going.

My goal for next weigh in is 170. I'm gonna hit the gym today. I'm gonna start back eating my tuna. I didn't eat it this past week. I got tired of my house smelling like tuna and onions. Ha.

Well, that's it for now.

[itsjustme]

Today so far I've had a can of tuna w/a lil ff mayo w/chopped up celery, and an apple. I went to the gym. I did 45 min on the treadmill and 15 min. on the cybex. I think that's what it's called. I had to be somewhere in an hour, so I went purposely at that time so I could get an hour in and not feel bad for not staying longer than that. On the treadmill I walked the first mile, the 2nd and 3rd mile, I alternated walking and jogging each 1/4 mile. I haven't eaten anything else yet, I've been busy running errands. I'm starving right now, gotta eat. There is a whole pizza here, I can smell it. I can't eat it....can't. It smells good..I looked at it, but I know I can't have it. I feel strong right now, not tempted by it today. That's a good feeling, not being tempted. Now, I can't say that tomorrow will be the same, but I can only hope. Ok..that's it for now. I'll check in later.

[constance]

itsjustme...I am SO proud of you!!!! Oh my goodness....being in a different place with people eating everything fattening and delicious while being around you can be a killer...but you were VICTORIOUS!!!
That is so awesome.

Remember this victory when you are tempted again.
Remember how you did not give in.
Remember how good it felt to eat the right thing, make good choices.
Remember how you could celebrate a loss on the scale.
Remember how good the exercise feels.
Remember that was your old life, this is your new life of healthy eating & exercise!!

8.6 lbs in two weeks is simply marvelous.
It is moving...in the right direction...keep going, girl!!!

constance

[itsjustme]

Thank you so much Constance. Makes me feel good hearing such nice things. Thanks again!!

So...today I've only had about 195 cals..so far. It's 3:48. I've said it before, I'm going to up my calories some. Anyhow..today I just grabbed a quick bar for breakfast..7:30am. I was running late. I didn't get anything else to eat until 1:00ish. I was starving. I thought I would have a class that I would have to eat lunch with, but turns out I didn't. So..when I got a break it was late. I was starving. My stomach was talking to me. I've been eating small meals throughout the day, so my body wasn't used to me not eating. That's a good thing. I can hear my body talking. Ha. Well...since I couldn't eat, I then started to feel bad, got a headache. I didn't feel real bad, just not my normal self. And of course the slight headache. I took some steamed veggies to eat. Only 50 cals. But I was still hungry afterwards. I got home a lil bit ago..about 3:20 and I ate 30 cals of okra, and 25 cals of veggies. My headache is just about gone now. So...I need to go buy me some more veggies. I have just about ran out. Think I'm gonna get the big bag this time. I could eat them all day, and they're so low in cals. I'm gonna eat something else shortly. I'm gonna go for now.

[itsjustme]

I have been on the go today. Ended up eating a later dinner than normal. I was starving by the time I made it back home. I ate 2 cups of veggies and tilapia, 162 cals all together. Oh..before I made it home I stopped at my folks and had a handful of cereal. I'm telling you, I was hungry. I didn't mean to be gone from home for so long. You know how it is when you get to Wal-Mart though. Grr. After dinner, I felt like something was missing. I squirted a mouthful of whipped cream in my mouth..a full mouth..2 times. It was yummy..and nice and cold. It did the trick. So..at that point I was done eating for the evening/night. I still didn't get enough calories in me today. I've been messed up all day with that. If I'm not working tomorrow, it will be a better day for me. I went to the gym today. 45 min treadmill, 15 min. cybex. Tomorrow I will eat about 6 small meals throughout the day to keep my metabolism going good. I have to go to the gym because I have an appointment to get me entered into the system for weight training. They have to walk you through all the machines. So..I"ll definitely be at the gym.

[constance]

Sounds like you had a good day with your eating and exercise.
What kinds of veggies do you get? Do you just eat them steamed with nothing on them?

I find that eating something hot, temperature wise, makes me feel more satisfied than something cold. That is why I love those 2 egg white omelettes that I make with 1 piece of Fat Free cheese....65 calories for what I consider a decent meal.

Keep going, you are doing great!

constance