nishi's journal

[nishi]

so ive decided to start a journal today. i think writting this down, and having opinions will help me reach my goal. and help me to love my body more, and understand why i get so insecure about things. i dont really know what to write, i guess im just babbling on. ok, so ill start from the beginning, about my ednos.

its weird...

when i left school, i was a reasonable normal healthy weight of 9 stone 4lbs. then i started seeing this prick, who really screwed with my head. on top of that i became a fan of eating 500g bars of chocolate, and bottles of red wine, and breakfast babps. it was comfort eating i guess. plus the fact that he was a fat bastard, and ate everything in sight! so anyways. i left him, and the stress of the break up, and a lot of other things meant that i lost a lot of weight. but by the time i had been with him for a couple of years i was up to 11 stone. so relatively, i didnt loos that much. i got down to 10 stone 4lbs. and that was the lowest i could get for ages. id always be doing diets, etc. but could never get anylower that 10 st 4.
anyways, a while after that, not sure when it startee, i stazrted counting calories. cradually id cut it down. so now im at the point where i like to stick to 1000 cals ofr less.

its very hard a times, especially when people in work comment on what i do or dont eat. its my body, my business what i do and dont put into it.

today im weighing in at 9 stone 10 lbs. im on my period. i havent had anything to eat yet. ive only had a cup of tea with 2 sweeteners and a dash of milk. which according to my little book of cals is only 10 cals

my boyfriend is comeing home at lunch time with soup and bread for lunch. its my favourite bread (wholegrain granary with lots pof seeds) and i cant help but eat loads of that stuff! i know the soup will be ok, cause its usually less that 200 cals, p[er tin. ive just got to stick to 1 slice of bread. and thats it. maybe enven not put butter on it. then theres tea tonight. whenever he cooks, i cant control the cals. but im in work tomorow, so i can control the cals easy, with pacaged stuff from boots! so seriour restrict tomorow. depending on today, ill see what tomorow brings.

sorry for myu rabling, but i feel a lot better for this. and my hunger pains feel worth it at the moment!

[ele]

good luck, you done so well already

[xskinnycatx]

[nishi]

i honestly really cant controll what i eat all. ive had a tin of soup and 200 grams of granary bread with a little butter on it. and some juice which was measured out, and was 50 cals. and a cup of tea, which was 10 cal (the way i make it) i think ive had about 600 cals today allready. ill go count it all up and get back to you all on here in a bit.

xxx

[nishi]

ok, so today i have eaten so far:

1 cup of tea made with sweeteners and skimmed milk - 10 cals
750mls of juice made with 50 ml of cordial 700 ml water - 50 cals
1 tin of heinz thick soup (scotch broth) - 192
2 slices (200g) of granary bread - (28 grams = 67cal) - 469

OMG i didnt realise there was so much in bread!

ok, so todays totals = 721

ok, so i know im not ging to be able to count tonights calorie intake, cause my BF is cooking, and its chicken wraps with salad.

so im just going to restrict to 500 tomorow. its a plan, and i have to stick to it!

[nishi]

had a bad day, well, was good to start. only had 400 cals by 2pm, then i went and bought a pick nd mix! dam me! fasting tomorow (try to!)

[Rose]

awww i know how you feel sweetie, i have a habit of having a really good moring and and ruining it later.

Good luck with the fast!

[nishi]

so todays food =

lunch box tub of couscous mixed with different types of beans, passata and a bit of cheese on top= 713 cals

2 cups of tea (skimmed milk and sweeteners) - 20 cals

2 x sugar free red bull = 17 cals

coke zero (approx 500 ml left in bottle) = 2 cals

1 average sized apple = 60 cals

this should last me all day! especially the couscous mix casue theres so much of it, and ive hardly eaten any for lunch, so what im going to do is keep munching little bits through out the day. anyways, my plan is, that if today goes well, the lunch box thing could be a good idea!

my thinking is, make up something similar to this every day, (make it the night before to save hassle the next morning if your going to work). make sure it comes to no more than 800 cals, so you could add as much veg to it, seasoning, make it with rice, or cous cous or quinoa, or whatever you fancy, as long as the concoxion comes to no more than 800 cals. then the last 200 is made up of water, tea, diet drings, an apple, banana, whatever!

does anyone else think this is a good idea? or am i being silly?

[nishi]

going well so far. i have to stay strong! i will stay strong! time for a cup of tea!

[nishi]

ok, so today has gone very well. i havent eaten my whole allowance of food today (yet!). ive done some exercise, and have calculated all exercise, including non exercise (cause im anal like that!) using this website =

http://www.caloriesperhour.com/index_burn.html

so my exercise today =

sleeping for 12 hours (yes i sleep that much!) = 671 cals

sitting by this damn computer for 5 hours = 321 cals

10 mins of vigorous sit ups = 83 cals

moderate free weights for 10 mins = 31 cals

walking for 1 hour = 391 cals (i walk fast)

total of 1491 cals burned in 24 hours

well, thats since i went to sleep at 9pm last night. and i figured that i should be counting the "hidden" cals that i burn.

i feel really good today. going to do a bit more exercise, just so that calories burned though exercise alone is a bit higher. maybe get it up to 6-700??

i cant wait to get my bike in 2 weeks time. ill be able to cycle to and from work each day, which will be 4.4 miles in total, then do some extra when im off.

[nishi]

so, woke up this moring. 9st 9lb. had some fruit and natural yoghurt for breakfast, and a weightwatchers microwave meal for lunch. but im still hugnry! ive been ill with a cold for the last few days, so ive been comfort eating. i had a wrap star from KFC yesterday, and as theyre a new thing, theyre not in my calorie book. but i looked through, and figured it was the same as a twister. so overall cals for yesterday was just over 1000. i havent been able to exercise lately though, because of my cold. i went for a run last thursday, and could only manage a mile. woke up friday morning, and i had a cold. so thats the reason i wasnt able to run so far. im going home this weekend. i havent been home in 4 - 5 motnhs. so im looking forward to people telling me i look great, and that ive lost weight!. well i hope they do anyways!. im aiming to loose 3 lbs this week. so that ill be the thinnest ive been in years! hope i can do it. i have a birthday bbq on sunday. its mine and my sisters birthdays this month, so as me and my BF are going home, she aranged it all. so a lot of my family is going to be there!

[nishi]

yay!! its july, new month, new start!

just joined july jumpstart, and going to attempt the kekwick diet tomorow.

i went home over the weekend, and no one really said much about my weighloss. my sister was like - "yer she lost weight, so what, look at me!! im the beautifull one"

BITCH!

and her boyfriend said to her in a really underhand way - "hey now that nia has lost weight, you look more similar!

bastard, as if to say that she weighs less than me! how can she, when all she eats all day is donuts, and chocolate and fatty food! last time i was home she was about 10stone 4pounds. and she's trying to say that she's about 9stone 10 now! oohh, coincidence thats what i told her i was down to last week!

GGGRRRRRR!!!

no worries, im going home 1st week in october, so i have 3 months to get down to my goal weight. so 12 weeks, and my goal weigh is 8stone 4pounds. thats 116 pounds, and i am currently 135. thats a loss of 19 pounds at a rate of about 2 pounds a week. piece of cake!!!!!!!

so my plan now is, loose 3 pounds a week, which will get me to my target weight in 6 weeks, then spend the other 6 weeks maintaining!!

ha! then we'll see who's laughing!!!

[Hopelessly]

hey nishi, just wanted to wish u good luck with your paln! im 25 so i can relate to wishing back to your school days, cant wait til i can say "i haven't been this weight since i was s teenager." although come to think of it i weigh less than i did when i was 15 (highest weight) and more than i did at 24 lol. maybe i just wanna be a kid again haha

[nishi]

Seeing as im back in the forum, I thoght id get back into doing my daily diary.

I have bought a cute little notebook, to write down everything that i eat, every day, and seeing as Ive been pretty much eating what ive wanted to over the past 2-3 months, im going to start off by restricting to 2000 cals, which is the reccomended daily allowance. And then once my body has gotten used to the 2000 cals, ill start cuting it down by 100 every 3-4 days, depending on how i feel.

So far today, my totals are-

Oatbake bar - 204
diet coke - 1.5
ham roll - 250
soup - 300

so 756 cals so far, and it is now 2.30pm.

Its not as good as it used to be, when i was restricting to 1000, but i will get back there.

And also, now that its starting to get lighter in the evenings, I will start running for half an hour on monday, wednesday and friday nights. along with a game of squash at the weekends, which is, as ive found out, the best way to burn calories. you can burn up to 1000 cals in an hours session!!

Anyways. Thats it for now. Reports will be done on weekdays.

Thin dreams to you all xxx

[nishi]

good morning to anyone who will read this!!

Ive been to the supermarket, and bought a weeks worth of food for work, that is really low cal, and actually has the cal content on the packaging!!

Wooo Hooo!!

Was putting my stuff in the fridge earlier, and weirdo girl stared into my shopping bag!!!

"get out of my shopping bag, and stop being so nosey!!"

I hate her!

New start, new day! new me is on its way!!