Jo's journal

[hungry87]

thanks, im not low carbing i try it every so often but i find it easier to just restrict cals, i try to eat less carbs tho like i cut down on bread pasta and all that crap but i have it occasionally. ive just turned veggie so that makes it harder too, i still eat fish for sum random reason. tonight im havin spag bol with quorn and instead of pasta im havin veg...god im bein good lol. i know uve lost loads doin low carb i always think of ya when im resistin the temptation of bread. last time i noticed u was 123lbs u lost ne more since?

[hungry87]

Down to 135.6lbs this mornin wey hey. had about 1200 cals today. Thats ll i have to say lol

[hungry87]

how cum whenevr i do well and get to a weight thats good i binge till im fat again i cant stand it its like i dont wanna be thin or something. grrrrrrrrrrrrr, im so angry with my self at the moment, what makes it worse is its valentines day on thursday and i was so lookin forward to it coz id lost a lil weight n now no im bk up to 141lbs this morning and i look discusting! i dont know what to do i feel like crap i have like 3 days (coz i already binged today so ill probs be even heavier in the mornin) to lose 6lbs or more, i need to do this i just really dont know how to anymore. im pretty sure some of its water weight, im so tempted to go n buy some laxs coz my stomach is so full of food that i look pregnant. i wish i cud be ana again, where has my control and will power gone? i was feelin so good when i reached 135lbs i felt amazing knowing i hadnt been that weight for so long n now look at me, im never gunna do this, ive been trying for so long, wish i cud stop bingeing. Ive had enuf.