it's so hard....

[svensk_okapi]

THINMINT!
you re still here, wow. i dont know if you remember me.
hope you re doing alright
all the best
svenskie

[constance]

ThinMint....I have seen that TurboJam....are you loving it and do you think it was worth the $$$?

constance

[Hopelessly]

I'm sorry but using too much soap?????? omg, do these people not wash or summat? poor u!

Good luck with the TurboJam, you'll rock it girl!

[ThinMint06]

svenskie!! of course i remember u!! i've missed you!! next stop: your journal! lol

constance: it's a little hard to keep up, but after a few times you're good. it's fun too!!!!! you can buy them off amazon too if you want to get the basic package. and if you're willing to stick to it, which you will bc it's FUN!! they put a timer on the bottom of the screen, but you don't even notice time passing.

So.... bad day. Horrible day. So, my work shut down. I failed to notice this until i realized there was no sign on the building and the windows had been boarded up. I mean.... wtf? so, i'm unemployed. even better news, I overdrew my bank account. yeah............ so. daddy helped with that one. i bought a lot of diet food (apples) mmmmm so good. had only fruit today. I'm going home tomorrow. that means, workout, fruit, class. then home. I'm taking my fruit with me too. hahah. yeah, i've lost it! no fat foods for this girl!!

the younger boy seems dumb. i feel bad just dropping him bc he's my friend's brother, but you all know how i feel about stupid boys. plus, there's a cute nerd in my death and dying class lol. yeah so typical, right?

[ThinMint06]

45 hrs into the fast. the boy is taking me to a concert in 7 days and i want to be as skinny as possible.
im sad. the depression is coming back. full force. it helps with fasting tho

[ThinMint06]

going strong. 69 hrs in.
i have fruit and coffee on my side haha. the pain is erotic almost. does anyone else feel that way? i love it. that ouch, ouch, growl, better, sigh. i like it. it's weird. you know, idk what's up with me.... i like being skinny, i like when i'm GETTING skinny, but when im fat, i like eating and hate being fat and wish i'd just have kept not eating so i could stay skinny.
gah

[DancerInTheMaking]

Hey ThinMint... glad it's going well!!! I know what you mean, I love going to bed with my stomach feeling really empty, it just reminds me that I'm doing something and that it's working!!
Skinny love to you huni
xxx

[ThinMint06]

ok so my uni is being horrible and won't allow me to access all the time. whatev.

my roomies are horrible. soooooo mean. they say things that are untrue and uncalled for. I heard them talking about my nice roomie the other night, i wigged. I was SO angry I almost lost it. as in lost it. i didn't hear anything about me.... but i blared destiny's child nasty girl, then after a while of still not calming down, i left. i stayed with a friend. i was MAD! so when i left i put a note in spanish saying that it's rude to talk about people and if you've got something to say, say it to that person. and they wrote back sorry notes. whatever.

it's nice roomie's bday we go out, have fun, come back and apparently we're too loud. so yeah, in trouble again. whatever. long story short i don't like them. we had people over tonight, cake and all and they didn't even come out of their lair.

tell me how you can hate someone you don't even know??? they haven't even given me a chance and they already don't like me. i didn't hear anything about me, but in the note they said they were sorry for talking about me, making me feel unwelcomed blah blah bullshit. i tried. i did. i try to be nice, i try to say hello or goodbye or whatever and make friends, but they hate me. i just don't get it. ug. so anyway, i am over it. i'm done being nice. i'm done caring about people who hate me. what's the point?

so i've stuck to my fruit. as in one piece a day.... and bday cake today (a little) and tonight i saw one of the mean roomies eating a hotdog in a cressant. i couldn't help but think she was SO FAT!! she isn't really all that fat, but she's about as fat as me..... and i'm FAT!! so. she can eat her fat little heart out. i don't care. i'm getting skinnier everyday. she's not. so when summer comes it'll be her and her fat face eating hotdogs. whatever.

i was stalking them on facebook, i deleted them a long time ago from my friends, but i was reading their convos.... and they were talking about jimmy john's. the sandwich place "i'm so hungry! i'm so excited about my sandwich you're getting me!" lol. get a life!!!!! we're in college. sandwich vs friends. cheaaaaaaa i kno what i want.

well tomorrow is another night of partying with the roomie. then sat i'm going to see the boo and go to a concert with him and cuddle sleep with him. it should be a good time. i'm happy. i need some positive things in my life. something's gotta give, you know?? ug. i am over the mean spirits in this house. it's poison.

[DancerInTheMaking]

They sound like such negative horrible people!!! I can't stand people like that, and god knows I have to put up with enough of them! It's good that there is someone there you can have a laugh with...
Sound like you've got great plans... I'd try and stay away from them tbh.. that negative energy is not good to be around...
Skinny hugs to you ThinMint
xxx

[Hollister76]

Man, some people just suck. That's totally unfair how they're treating you

Congrats on sticking to your diet!

<3

[ThinMint06]

i had toooooo much fun at the party, only had beer all day, fell into a bachelor's party at the club and kissed a stranger- ah! what???

well, the boy and i went to the concert, still hadn't eaten, and i fainted!!! i was sooooo embarrassed!! it was soooo hot in there tho. oy. but the boy took good care of me and i was fine once i had some water. i really like him!! that night i fell asleep at my friends house, i've been so beat. and he laid next to me. it was cute then the next day we hung out all day cuddling and watching tv with my friends. and he asked me to prom how amazing is that? i'm excited. but now i have to get skinny for that dress...... ug.

today i ate veggies.

my roomies have been mean so i tried to make peace, they yelled i cried bc i don't know why they don't like me-- like what have i done??? well now we're more or less friends.... gah. in a week they'll hate me again

[meltmyselflikeice]

I spent a year living with 'toxic' people, who would talk about me and others. Finally, after hearing so much shit and spending too much time caring about it, I had enough and told them to tell it to my face if they had any problems with me. After that, it was quiet. And their comments were uncalled for, I had been very respectful and nice although I kept to myself a lot but that's because I didn't want to give them even more to talk about. Wrong strategy but what the hell. I'm thinking; either talk when I'm not home or can't hear or say it to me directly. The problem is that it takes so much energy to be around these people. I'm glad you have a nice roomie too, but good luck with the others. Some people are just impossbile to 'win over' or make friends with no matter how hard you try.

[Hopelessly]

Hugs! I'm so sorry you're having a hard time with your roomies. but at least you have your boy to make you smile. and i bet you'll look fab at the prom!

[ThinMint06]

thanks girls

the roomies and i are going our own ways more or less.

i have a horrible cough it's sick! i'm beat, hungry!!! and almost on break!! *phew* i'm so ready . the boy and i are basically exclusive but not official. it's cute. i bet we're dating soon. problem is he's not here, so who's to say it wont be just like every other boy???

[Tina]

Hey Mint
long time no see!!! How are you? Are you in love yet?
I miss you, come back!