Trying to find my way. Re-discovering strength

[starry_girl]

I woke up today, feeling bloated and disgusting and I'm craving junk. Bread, pizza, crisps sound not just tempting but normal.

lastnight, I stuffed my face with pizza, toast, crisps, chocolate and cakes and crammed my greedy mouth till i was so full I felt almost ill. Then the guilt came. I was on day 2 of my fast and it was only a 2 day fast. I was doing so well, and then weakness overcame me.

So once again I sit here feeling fat, like a big fat ungraceful whale who can't fit into my nice clothes so instead I wear baggy clothes ashamed of myself. My trousers feel tight and all I can think about is food.

I used to be so good, so in control and now here I am the complete opposite, feeling so low at this point in my life.

I'm sitting here with my morning coffee, not yet eaten a thing. Could this be the day I finally regain that control?

I really hope so.

So this is my journey of trying to find my way back. Support very welcome. x

[JulietsDyingWish]

Jeeze, junk food is a bitch! Gotta stay away from that stuff....just think...what sounds better...a greasy, messy, calorie filled, lard look alike piece of pizza, or a nice, cool, calm, refreshing glass of cold water? lol...mind over matter my friend. Good luck!

[omnifabulous]

I feel like everytime I get any control that I dont have it then when I look back I realize I did and now I dont lol. I dont know if that makes sense. Before my relapse I could only eat 500 cals a day give or take a little and work out but now I cant do that any more its really annoying.

[Jennifer]

just post on here instead of eating - it's saved me today, i've been in a right piggy mood!!!

Hope your night is going ok
Stay strong,
Jen x x x

[ashling]

its ok we all slip up all ya have to do is pick urself up and promise urslef tah t2mara is a fresh start.. x