SweetSixteen's Journal

[Jennifer]

Families area pain in the ass!!! I'm quite lucky really - my b/f trains 3 times a week and doesn't get back till late so i just tell him I've already eaten so I don't have to eat with him.

plus my mum had ana about 10 years ago so she didn't nag me when i was unwell 6 years ago and I know she wont nag me now. She doesn't know about the b/p-ing - she wouldn't get her head round that cos she's soooo disciplined!! (she's nearly 50 and still 108-112!)

Sooo sweetSixteen, what to do when your family wants you to eat potato chips and you dont, hmm, its a toughy. maybe have a big ass bag of sf candy so you can say ''no thanks, i'd rather have some candy'' - that way they will see you eating junk food (they dont have to know its sf!!) and tey wont be on your case to eat chips. Or take a few potato chips and hide them up your sleeve, they will be watching TV so they wont notice. That way they will think your eating and you dont have to feel guilty

Stay strong

Jen x x x x

[SweetSixteen]

I wish I lived alone; there's always someone here. Always - no matter what. It drives me insane. Plus, it doesn't help much that my family is so nosey. They have to know everything.

I think Sugar Free candy is a good idea. I think I'll look into buying a bag when I'm out next. That way they'll think I'm still pigging out on candy!

Thanks for the suggestions and support Jennifer!

[SweetSixteen]

Well, when I weighed myself this morning I was 162 lbs. I'm down 1 lbs this week. It's just been a bad week but next week will be much better. Weight loss will be much better.

Goals...

Friday, January 11th= 155 lbs
Friday, January 18th= 152 lbs
Friday, January 25th= 149 lbs

[Jennifer]

Hey, don't feel down about it 1lb is still 1lb of blubber that is no longer clinging to you Be positive - the scales are moving in the right direction

The candy thing really does work - my bf commented the other night that I always seem to be snacking and ''aren't they bad for your teeth??'' haha, i called him mum

Living away from your parents is easier, i'll admit, but it can be done

Keep up the good work hun x x x x

[SweetSixteen]

Yeah, 1 lb down is still weight loss. Even though it's not as much weight as I wanted to lose this week. Lol.

I have to stay positive or this'll never work!

Thanks again Jennifer!

[SweetSixteen]

I'm really proud of myself tonight. I avoided what my family was eating (even though it looked good and was tempting) and had a baked potato instead.

So today I've eaten...

- a bagel with margrine (300 cals)
- a small bowl of light jello (10 cals)
- a baked potato with margrine (200 cals)

I might also have a few rice chips later.

So, let's say the total for today is: 550 cals

Hopefully I weigh a little less tomorrow!

[SweetSixteen]

Tonight has been the worst night I've had in a long time! I've been trying so hard to get along with my family but they all seemed to gang up on me tonight. They made me feel absolutly worthless. Not to mention that they brought my weight into this talk (as they put it). My weight is none of their business; it shouldn't matter to them if I'm overweight or skinny. I am who I am.

So, as a result of being called fat... I binged. Makes sense right? You think that that would make me mad enough to eat less but no... I have to go and binge on a bunch of starchy foods. Smart choice. I'm sure that'll make for a nice weight tomorrow morning.

I'm so annoyed right now. I feel absolutly horrible!

You know what? I really shouldn't care what they think. I am going to lose this weight to show them! I will be thin. I will be happy. I will be stronge. Nobody is going to stop me; absolutly nobody!

This is my turning point; my time to shine! I'm done crying.

[Jennifer]

Ah honey, thats really really shit sending big big hugs.

You lose weight for YOU, fuck anyone who EVER comments on your weight (either high or low).

You're on this journey on your own, there's nobody there burning calories for you, nobody physically stopping you eat shite, you are doing this because you are strong and because you know you can do it.

Keep up the good work hun, one little blip wont put you back to the beginning, forget about it and move on to the new, happier you

Jen x x x

[SweetSixteen]

You're right; thanks Jennifer.

I;m just frustrated that I binged. It's a bad habit that I've gotten into - eating out of anger or sadness. I really need to ditch that habbit. Soon.

In the end, the binge last night cost me a pound. I'm not going to bother changing my ticker because, well, I'm hoping to lose that pound by tomorrow.

[SweetSixteen]

Today has been so much better then last night. I woke up this morning feeling inspired and ready to face the world!

Today I've eaten...
- 4 slices of Melba Toast= 80 calories
- Cellery slices with dressing= 80 calories
- 12 rice chips= 120 calories
- Mashed potatoes with margarine= 200 calories
- Pork Chop= 150 calories

Total= 730 calories

I'm pretty proud of that number. Sure, it could be lower but I don't think it's anything to worry about. I set a limit of 1000 calories a day and I'm well under that. That's what I consider a sucessful day!

Hope everyone else is having a good day as well!

[Hollister76]

Family can really hurt sometimes

You can always come here, though; never forget that.

That cal intake was good, congrats on restricting!

[SweetSixteen]

Thanks Hollister76! That's why I wrote that little rant here - I know how supportive everyone is and I knew that someone would come along and cheer me up. So, thanks to everyone!!

[Jennifer]

glad today has been better 720 is fantastic remember how proud you're feeling righ now and next time ya wanna binge you know it will ruin this feeling.

Next time ya need a binge log on here and write a long and borning post - that should kee p ya busy enough to get rid of the anger. Being angry and eating is not good cos you just dont care. least if you wrote something on here (even if it's complete rubbish!!) it will help you weigh up if you REALLY want to binge, or if, maybe half a biscuit or something will do.

Stay strong

Jen x x x

[SweetSixteen]

Thanks again Jennifer!

I'll have to keep in mind to come here and just blab when I feel like binging. So everyone who reads this diary, be prepared for a few long boring posts!

Thanks for all the understanding everyone! Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday!

[SweetSixteen]

Today was another good day! My only problem was that I had about half a chicken breast a few minutes ago and it's 10 p.m. I was really hungry and thought that it'd be better to have the chicken then binge on junk.

Today I ate...

- 4 slices of Melba Toast= 80 calories
- Granola Bar= 120 calories
- Smart Pop popcorn= 130 calories
- Baked potato with margarine= 200 calories
- 2 Life Savers (candies)= 15 calories
- Chicken= 110 calories

Total= 655 calories