Carpe Diem

[Tina]

Thanks for the support girls
today: a good day. 1 skinny latte (uhm i love, love, LOVE them!)
1 low-fat yoghurt. So far, maybe 200 cals. and will have no more today. thinking about maybe starting a fast. my birthday is coming up this tuesday, and pictures will be taken, so i should probably be motivated by that. and then, there's new year's, i'm going to copenhagen with two girlfriends and i need to look my best for that! single, and all....you know how it is-
christmas will be hard for me, all that family-time and greasy food and those sweets...grrrrr i HAVE to make it!
maybe if i could lose 3 kgs before the holidays, that will compensate for the food i'll have to eat while at my parents?
tomorrow: going to church for the annual christmas concert. that will get me in the spirit for sure!

[Tina]

Not so bad today either; low-fat yoghurt and vitamin pills.
Had a job interview today, it went really well, and i hope i get it. they'll let me know before cristmas. i'm so fed up with my current job, it's all work and no fun -and you know what that'll do to you!
tonight: going out for red wine with some of my girlfriends. TGIF!
Hope you've all had a great day so far!

[nickytml]

oh red wine with the girls sounds like a fun friday nite!!

Im going crazyy thinkin bout the holidays too.. im kinda scared that we booked our trip right after xmas and new years. I am goin to be such a FAT pig!!! i just reallllly realllly have to try and stay away from the sweets and dont eat too much. I just have to focus and not have 2 servings of anything no matter how good it looks.

your food intake is still looking great!

p.s soooo glad to have u back i love reading ur journal hun

[Tina]

Christmas is moving up so fast, I can't believe it!
Still have some gifts left to buy, so today's the day when I go out and get the rest, go to a job interview (and smile smile smile!), and clean the bathroom. I'm such a good girl!
As for food: i will only have 300 cals today. That means youghurt, skinnylatte and maybe some veggies later.
The world's largest zit has set camp on my upper lip. Great. Why do I get them when I eat nothing?
Maybe start a fast tomorrow.

[mia_me]

[Tina]

OK.....I totally blew the fast, instead I binged for hours yesterday. Damn, I think I've gained 2 kgs, feels like and looks like in the mirror. Pis.
Going up to Lillehammer today (you know, where we had the winter olympics i '94...no of course you didn't know that ), to snowboard with friends. Staying there through the holidays, in my parents cabin. Nice!
At least I'll be out all day in the slopes so I won't be able to stuff my face. Dinner is a must, though. My parents watching me at every meal.
Come january, I'll start that fast for sure. And I bet most of you will to!

And now......for the good news: I GOT A NEW JOB!!!!! I'm moving up in the world, ha ha, it's fantastic, just what I wanted. Starting 1st of april next year. YAY GO ME! Now, if I just could lose 5 kgs, I think I'd actually be happy...

No internet access in the cabin, so this is my last post for now, back in a week.
I WISH YOU ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Next year we will ALL BE SKINNY!!!!!!!!
Love, Tina

[nickytml]

Hope you have a blast this week.. enjoy your holidays!! merrrry christmas darlin!!!!

[Tina]

Jeeez
I can't believe it. I've gained 2 kgs in five days. How is that even possible???? I've been a pig, I admit. Even my mother commented on how much I ate...I'm disgusting.
Came home yesterday, and have been fasting ever since. So no solids for soon to be two days! Not bad, eh? My jeans are so tight, it's the most nauseating feeling in the world. And -crisis- I'm leaving for Denmark in two days, having a single girls new years weekend with two girlfriends. What if my favorite dress doesn't fit? I addition, I've got the worst cold and sore throat, probably from snowboarding in MINUS 15 degrees Celsius. But it was so much fun!!! I love it!
Ok, so the plan is: no solids tomorrow, then I'll postpone eating the 30th for as long as possible, we're not leaving untill late in the afternoon, so hopefully that'll make a difference. I have to lose those extra kgs before new years eve!!!!!!!!!! Damn it. Why am I such a weak pig?

[Tina]

Quick post
Popped in just to avoid binging...I want food so bad....
Can't give up now. Can almost taste it, but i'm stronger than this. No matter what I want right now, I have to remember that my GW is what I REALLY crave. All my other lusts and wants are just speedbumps on my way to fullfilment. If I give in now, I will never get there.
I feel strong, but at the same time so weak. It's a battle of me, and hell no if I'll let the hungry part of me win. The part of me that wants everything RIGHT NOW.
I'll read journals 'till this blows over, cause it always does.
Good night, skinny dreamers.

[Tina]

I avoided The Binge last night.
Going on day 3 of the fast. Easier today, very motivated by the fact that new year's coming up. Will try on The Dress tonight. *fingers crossed*

Maybe I'll be back tomorrow before I leave for the airport, but if I'm not:

HAPPY NEW YEAR

See you in 2008! Be safe!

Tina.

[Tina]

Just about to leave
I've lost the 2 kg's! 3,5 days of fasting did the trick.
YAY
2008 will be the year I reach my goal weight -and keep it off.

[Tina]

Quick post today.
I'm doing ok, no solids for three days now. Getting easier.
My goal is to lose 5 kgs before easter. Then it'll be a year since I started this diary. It's great to know I've kept it off for all these months, the problem is I still feel fat. No matter how much I lose, I still look fat, I feel just as big as I did one year ago.
Signing my contract for the new job tomorrow. Great! Can't wait.
When it comes to boys, the jury is still out. I have no clue whatsoever.

[Tina]

Very depressed today. I binged through the weekend, and I'm up 3 kgs! How is it possible to gain 3 kgs in 3 days? It must be water. I didn't eat THAT much. I'm such a loser (or should I say gainer).
Maybe fasting isn't the answer right now, since I'm so weak. I'll just restrict to 500 cals a day. So far today: 400 cals, and not planning to have anything for supper. Will try to go to bed early. 'Cause you know: she who sleeps, does not eat.

[Tina]

350 cals so far today. Planning to have broth and water for the rest of the evening. I need to fill up on something. If I can restrict for the rest of this week, I'll try fasting again starting monday. Will also try to jog for an hour, three days a week. I hate working out, but I think I really need to. I wanna look skinny and glowing when I start my new job in april. That'll make me feel more confident.
Even though I'm happy about the change in workplace, my self-esteem is so low. I sometimes wonder if I'll be any good at it. You know, will I be perfect? It's years since I've finished college, and you think I should be comfortable in my job by now, but I'm really not. I love what I do, but I'm always wondering if I measure up. It's exhausting, really.
I think I'll go out jogging. Brrrrr it's cold outside!

Now where are those hipbones hiding?

[sailorv]

Good luck with the intake and the exercise. I'm planning on upping my exercise too, I'm using SAD as an excuse to be lazy!
Stay Strong