Kit's Journal

[nickytml]

awww u are soo pretty! and soooo thinspiring - wow look at your body. amazinggg legs -they are so tiny! and that flat tummy of urs. i am soo jealous.

no need to thank me for the support i know how helpful it is to know that other ppl are rooting for ya. and im here for u all the way!!

[omnifabulous]

awww thank you so much for commenting it really made my night, I dont think im tiny at all, and I was really discouraged I didnt feel tiny after reaching my first gw.. I dont think i have a flat tummy at all I def dont think I look like my bmi is 16.4 either.

This forum means so much to me its so nice to be able to talk so openly about ana Thanks so much for the comments

[nickytml]

well u definetley look skinny! and yes a bMI of 16.4 is believable.

its definetely nothing like my 140 pounds of fat - and over 20 BMI now that is waht u call gross

i love this place too.. and all the wonderful girlies. ive been here since may of this year and i dont know where i'd be without it

[mia_me]

aww hunnie you look amazing in ur pics! :O im SOOOO jealous of ur stomach! UGH! mine's all fat and flabby, i haaate it and it wont go away!

and i keep weighing myself too lol! like 3 times a day. but we all know weighing in the morning is the best though... so yeah.

stay strong hun :hug:

[omnifabulous]

I think I should have abs of steel from all the coughing ive been doing jesus christ. Yesterday when I was awake I ate a strawberry bar that was 120 cals, then went to bed woke up ate a donut (gross i know) a few doritios, juice, a couple of baked fries etc, I dont think over 800 cals for that day went back to bed. Woke up today had 120 strawberry bar and a couple preztel sticks and some apple juice probably 300 cals, I dont plan on going over 500 today but if I do whatev Im so tired of being sick. I have a dr.s appointment today at 2:15 pm. Sleeping has really been an aid to me not eating hopefully ill be better by tomorrow, then I have an adderall im gonna split between two days. I hate being sick ive lost three days to it now I feel totally groggy and out of it. I havent been able to wiegh myself either too tired and lazy to go up and check.

[omnifabulous]

I think someone stole my adderall cause i cant find it any where.. thats really annoying.. and I have been munching all day. I hate myself for that... I think im going to start a fast tomorrow.,

[nickytml]

awww hope your feelin better soon. it definetely sucks being sick - but the only good thing is that u dont eat too much.

drink lotsss of fluids

[omnifabulous]

yeah im drinking alot now. Its 2 pm and I m gona eat vegan chicken then clean my room that will be 300 cals for me today. I hate eating.

[nickytml]

thats not many calories at all - way to go!

[omnifabulous]

yeah if only I had stuck to it!! Ugh ate alot yesterday still at 110 I hate that number I miss 108. I dont know what Im gonna do I think Ill start taking my effexor again cause it make me not want to eat. Great way to use an anti depressant. I was at the drs the other day for my cold and I was so suprized they didnt bitch. I dont listen to the drs scale at all cause you have all your clothes on and shoes and stuff and when I was there like a week or so ago it was one lb lighter then a month previous and they gave me crap and then when I was in the other day it was like 4.5 lbs lighter in a week. Whatev. As long as I dont get bitched at I guess.

I cannot find my wallet it is driving me insane.

[nickytml]

i never get bitched at for my weight.. cause im still too fat. got way too much to loose still before anyone would even think about telling me to eat. *sigh* the life of a fattty

u can get back to 108! we just got to be good.. and no binges thats the hardest part.

[omnifabulous]

yesterday was good, I hardly ate anything just a lean pocket and a handful of cereal. Then I got drunk off my ass and apparently fell and hit my face it really hurts I think I might get a black eye. Oh hell slowly learning my lesson. I stepped on the scale today and it was 109 yay! I used to not be able to stand being at 115, I just wanted to be 110 and now I cant even stand to be at 110. I joined perfect blues 5 day fast to hopefully I can stick to that, I already feel hungry! Oh well I have control I can do this!

[omnifabulous]

So I messed up the fast but not horribly, I just felt sooo ill from the drinking I had to get something in my stomach : (. I just had a bowl of corn, 80 cals worth. And now Im drinking an energy drink (220 cals) so 300 cals today and Im pretty sure thats all im consuming today, xmas and the new year are coming up soon so I really want to get to my goal before then! Im soooo close I just cant mess this up!

[omnifabulous]

bleh ate alot today, cereal, a slice of pizza, and two sodas (non diet) I think Ill lay off the food the rest of the day hopefully wont gain. I was at 108 again this morning. yay.

[omnifabulous]

I ate a quesidilla after that.. lame. But today I have only had 2 cookies (bad I know) a soda and a clementine. I hope to keep it that way, maybe eat some celery so my stomach stops being an asshole. I think I want to start eating more raw foods. Weighed myself and its the end of the day and i was at 109 thank god I didnt gain a bunch I would die.