Don't give up...need help

[bloodbonesandsex]

I am trying not to give up cause I want it so bad....ugh!! My weight keeps bouncing back and forth....I am now at 153.7lbs.. and totally disgusted. I was doing so good. I need help. Someone to be there to talk to...
Any Ideas?

[bloodbonesandsex]

So I started a fast today well at Midnight. I am a night owl so. It seemed like a good time to start a fast. I wrote down my schedule. I am doing 5 fasts each fast is 4-7 days. In between each fast I am going to try to eat under 200cals. And while fasting only water and diet pills. And lotsa excersize..but my legs are solid muscle and they are huge and I want to have smaller legs. But I don't know how to get rid of the muscle. Any one know how? I have been really good at keeping to my fast so far. It is 11am and I have only had water. Weighted myself this morning and I am at 150lbs so small happiness. Not really. I want to weight less than 130 at the end of my fasting which ends on Oct. 5. I will need some help to keep me focused. Other than that everything is fine. I am staying with my best friend who is also ana pron (according to her) She was for a while..but she eats so much now it is disgusting. Mainly because her husband yells at her if she doesn't eat. I watch her kids while she is at work. Even though I would love to go to work sometime this month..grrr...She mocked me this morning when I told her I am fasting. grrr....I will be ok. I will lose the weight. I will be thin again.