A Skinny Journey...

[candy]

What an idiot, seriously I feel for you. They are just so bloody stupid sometimes when it comes to the obvious. Stay strong hun, you deserve better than him, that seems apparent. Hope you get it all sorted out! Use it to your advantage, be "too stressed out" to eat or whatever.

[nickytml]

hope everything has gotten better hun - i am sorry u have to be goin thru this. at least ur gettin skinnnny

[Skinny_Chick]

Morning, busy, busy. I'm just going to work myself to death. That's my new plan. Stupid Boy (trust me, he's still stupid) is a total mess. Giving me a headache 24 hours a day. I can't marry him, can't do it. He's a trainwreck. So, he actually asked the other day if we could just stay together forever and not get married. UMM NO. He's crying and freaking out, keeps wanting me to stay with him yikes. He was flipping out AGAIN yesterday about my friends. Well one in particular. The same friend he didn't want me talking to or hugging. One of the best most important friends I've got. Yep, that's the one he hates. Now I figure that if my best friend broke my relationship up because Stupid Boy was mad that I have him and then he tells me it's my friends or him. AND OBVIOUSLY IT'S MY FRIENDS I'VE CHOSEN (there just seems to be SO MUCH that he couldn't handle EVERYTHING upset him) why does he continue to cling to me it's painfully obvious that he doesn't have a clue how to have a grown up relationship (you know the kind where you aren't jealous, controlling, and freaking out 24/7 and the kind where you have mutual friends and seperate friends) normal stuff. Anyway I'm off to get ready to work myself to death for another week.

*149.5 this morning!!*

[candy]

Sorry to hear stupid boy is being all crazy on you...
Great job on 149.5! I'm sure you'll have a great day since the scales were good to you. Stay strong girly, in everything. Your friends and agains the food!

[Skinny_Chick]

Had a sandwich for lunch.


I can't be with him right now, I can't. I can't marry him right now, he's a mess. I can't figure out why he doesn't understand that it's a terrible idea to get married when he's in financial ruin, with seemingly no way out. I can't seem to understand at all.

I can only work, can only take care of me, can hope that one day he understands.

He calls and wants me to come over, to stay with him. Wants to pretend there's nothing wrong. Cries when I go to my house. Begs to be with me. It's terrible of me, but he's dragging me backwards. He says he loves me, but love won't prevent the repo man from getting the car, or pay the bills, or make him understand why it's really important to me lately that my stuff is paid, or make him understand why I think his choices are so shitty. It doesn't help him to understand that I don't give up the best friends I have for anything, they are my rocks. End of story, if at 32 years old that's so hard for him then whatever. I can't take anymore.

[Skinny_Chick]

Marginally better this morning. Almost all of my stuff is removed from EX-FH's house. Over it. Although hedid have the guts to tell me the other day that I just needed to grow up. I work 50 hours a week, my bills are paid up for the most part and I'm the one who needs to grow up, figure out what i want, and "put my foot down" to my mom who in this current case is right? Uuumm buddy you have it all backwards. It's not me it's his jealousy, immaturity, and lack of drive NOT MINE. Enough already.
It's thundering like crazy here, looks like it's about to rain cats and dogs.
I'm feeling slightly smaller this morning or maybe I'm just having a skinny day. Maybe the Sugar Free Red Bull is making me happy lol. The problem is that when I went to take more stuff out of ex-fh's house last night I had so much stuff that there was no room for the scale. So, I wake up this morning with no scale. Tonight I'll get it. It's driving me NUTS not having it.

Sugar Free Red Bull is my breakfast of choice this morning. 10 calories.

I'm going to attempt to have a good day today. We'll see how that goes. I'm going back to working myself to death today. At least I'm content being over worked these days. *Skinny**Skinny* morning to you all!

[ThinMint06]

girl,
you deserve better. you don't want someone with no goals or ambition... and he's waaaaaay too clingy!!
you need a break. don't rush back into things.

[Skinny_Chick]

Thanks my dearest Minty.

Alas, one more reason I'm glad he's gone..... so it seems that ex-fh has taken another day off (he's stressed poor baby) he hasn't worked in 3 days. So, he calls to tell me that he went to lunch with a friend (hello you have no money) and then proceeds to call me back to say that his mom, his nephew, his cousin and his cousin's wife are all there to visit him.

NOW, would someone please advise a girl here. My theory....

*If you are in a world of debt, why are you taking a day off just because you are stressed? Half of your stress comes from knowing that half the bills aren't paid. So, what are you doing??

*If you are over 25 (he is 32, I'm 29) you better either A) be in school or B) be working your a$$ off. If you aren't doing either of these things then how do you expect to pay the bills and have the things you want? Don't cry to me that you want a laptop go to work and then pay your bills and go buy a freaking laptop if that's what you want. Don't just be pathetic and complain, do something about it ESPECIALLY IF YOU HAVE A COLLEGE DEGREE!

*If you've been retarded enough to take a day off due to your lack of ambition, and you rather just whine about the bills and have NOTHING, then it's probably your best bet to invite over the rest of the family none of whom mentioned above work except for his cousin.... so you can all sit around and bitch about how stressed you are that none of the bills are paid but screw it you've got the time to do nothing so who cares if the bills go down the drain.

*Last but not least, when the bills get behind they actually subscribe to the following idea. *DISCLAIMER* I FLIPPED WHEN I HEARD THIS IT'S ONE OF THE MOST WRONG AND SICKEST THINGS I'VE EVER HEARD. I AM NOT IN ANY WAY ACTUALLY SUGGESTING ANYONE DO THIS!!!*DISCLAIMER* His mom and his sister have both done this... when the power or cable have gotten shut off for nonpayment they've both at seperate time had them hooked back up in the names of ex-fh's nieces and nephewsages 4, 9 and 11 and they all have ruined credit already. The cable and the power companies seriously should check ID's I'm not even sure it's legal. MAKES ME SICK.


So, I'm VERY glad I got out when I did. I don't want any part of that crap anymore.

Food wise today...

Sugar Free Red Bull 10 calories
XXL Monster Sugar Free 30 calories

I'm now about ready to go run laps around the building

Is everyone having a *Skinny* afternoon?

[Skinny_Chick]

*Sigh of relief* Feeling exceptionally well today. Forgot the scale last night, will have to get it tonight. Feeling skinnier, but no clue. I think I have to attribute part of my exceptional mood to my Zantrex-3 that showed up in the mail yesterday. I bought it, then started hearing some shady things about it. So, I started with 1 not 2 and I'm feeling pretty darn good (keep in mind here, I'm not a huge fan of diet supplements in the first place, usually they make me feel really funny and jittery). Not sure how long it's been since my mood was this good. I didn't sleep well last night, but still feeling good, which for me is AMAZING usually I feel terrible when I don't sleep well. Go me. The story is that the bottle says it's properties are activated by food. But your not hungry go figure.

1/2 Asiago Cheese Bagel 175 calories.
*Aquafina* Liter 0 calories

Story of my day so far. Working again as usual. *Skinny* day!

[candy]

You're so much happier now that FH is almost out of your life! It's so great to see. He was causing you a ton of unhappiness, and now that's gone. Plus you won't have anyone hounding you about what your eating. I'm sure you're really skinnier, it's not just a feeling, I can't wait to see what you weigh when you weigh in.

What's that XXL Monster that you had? Is it an energy drink? I'm going to have to start investing in those...

About the Zantrex 3, how it's supposed to be activated by food. I think that's because no normal person could fathom going 5 hours without food, never mind an entire day. Crazy weak people.

Skinny Day!

[ThinMint06]

hey girl.
keep up the great work. you can do this. just remember that!!!
don't talk to him. he's an idiot. point blank.
i love you!!

[Skinny_Chick]

Thank you ladies I still can't get stupid boy to stop calling me. Last time he called it was to tell me that he was trying to sell my $2500 diamond ring for $600 (yea, YOU WHAT?!?) He then proceeded to tell me that he'd give me part of the money (I've got my own thank you). Then he was going to sell the cell phone I had (I now have a nice new one) BUT he was going to give me part of the money for that to (you know what keep your money, he needs it way, way worse than I do).
So, I think I'm going back to the "Soup Queen" for real. Been struggling this weekend. I don't eat then when I do it's total junk (hello Salt and Vinegar Chips, popcorn and Zingers YIKES)!! So, I'm going back to my tried and true. Well, I did have puffed rice for breakfast to go with the Zantrex 3 but, it was 50 calories. Definately no big deal there. Maybe I'll do puffed rice cereal with soup this week. A little variety for me always a plus.

Another day at the office, the scale is permanently (yes, I got it back) STUCK at 152. I've gained yuck. We'll see what this week brings
*Skinny**Skinny* Morning to you all!!

[ThinMint06]

hey girl,
the return of the soup queen? HECK YES!!
i hope you stick with it, you kno you can and now that that loser's out of your way, you have no excuses. just keep telling yourself you've done it once, you can do it again. stay focused. i'm right here, cheering you on.
yeah, for real. i've skyrocketed back up to 136 and there's nooooo way i'm staying there!!!

[candy]

What a dork! you don't need or want his money! Gah! I'm sure he'll get the hint soon and take a hike, for good.

That sucks that the scale is stuck, but with the return of the soup queen it's sure to fall soon.

Hope you had an awesome day! Skinny vibes!!!! Oh and hugs!

[Skinny_Chick]

Thanks ladies The Soup Queen will be making her return at dinner this evening. In case it's not obvious, I have yet to transfer the internet from EX-FH's house. Have to pay it off first. Hello, it's in my name and it's also one of the bills that I never saw and therefore I never knew it was a month behind. So, lately I'm relying on my office computer.

So far today I've had...
1 Sugar Free Red Bull 10 calories
A bit of tuna salad (cured the protein headache) 200 calories
And I'm about to road trip at the office again, so add in one more Red Bull for the ride 10 calories

220 so far. Not bad... Soup for dinner... maybe a few crackers not sure yet. BRING BACK THE SOUP QUEEN!! Should be around for a minute after my road trip, and before I leave. If not *Skinny* Night to you all!!