Silverana on her way to gold

[silverana]

AAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I just have to tell that someone now!
Its nothing about food, but about school.

Were getting our reports next week and so this and last week the teachers are telling us our marks. The fact is, most of my teachers and classmates think Im smart (in some subjects thats true, but not for all!!!). The reason is that I write very good exams. The problem is, my oral participation ....well, actually it doesnt exist. I rarely or never raise my hand. But because the teachers know from the exams that I do understand the stuff, they give me better marks than the students that do take part in the lesson but write bad exams. And now exactly these students moan about and shout at me! I didnt ask the teachers to give me high marks, I even told them that I deserve only 4 (the highest are 15). But what shall I do if the teachers tell me that I underestimate me with that?! I got the feeling that all these people hate me and want to see zero points in every of my subjects. Im not the only student in the courses who is qiuet, but somehow they always take me as an example. They shall leave me alone!!!

So, that was what I wanted to say.
To tell you how Im doing apart from school, Im still on the cleanse. It actually goes well, but everybody says that you dont feel hunger pangs and that you have energy, thats why Im doing that thing. But my stomach is gumbling all the time and I feel like sleeping all day. I dont know if I do something wrong or if I just have to wait some more days... Anyway I wont give up!

[nickytml]

sorry to hear about that school stuff - but really dont worry about what people think! as long as u are the one getting good marks than thats what matters

i would imagine u would feel tired while doin a clense.. especially since u arent eating. but i am sure it will all be worth it in the end when u step on that scale. so stay strong hun

[silverana]

Hey nicky,
youre probably right about school. But still it hurts to got the feeling that everybody hates you.
Today also my friends stopped talking to me. No idea why. I havent been on that birthday, just said that I already make a familiy trip on that day. Maybe thats the reason. Anyway, they are getting on my nerves. Its the second time now they do that to me. They ignore me completely without telling me what I did. Im glad that in two days there are holidays!!

Then I also got soooo much time for exercising! Im on that cleanse for one week now, and actually it said to lose one kilo per day. I dont see or feel a difference on me. Today I reduced the amount of the maplesyrup in my drink, hope thats good for something.

[nickytml]

what exactly does this cleanse entail?

i bet u cant wait for holidays! ur totally right that u will have plenty more exericse time that will definetely help in weight loss

[silverana]

Mainly the cleanse shall eliminate toxins that have bild up in the body and clean your intestines. To get sure that the toxins come out you have to drink laxative teas or this disgusting salt water stuff.
But it also advertises that you lose a lot of weight while being on the cleanse. That even makes sense, the only things you put into you are lemonade juice, syrup and cayenne pepper. Of course they also say that you easily gain it back as soon as you start eating normal and more calories. But that is not what Im gonna do. Eating high calorie amounts, I mean. I hope that after the cleanse there wont be one single day I eat more than 500 cals.

[nickytml]

well its definetely worthwhile to do just to cleanse ur body anyways, and if u loose weight with it than thats a bonus. im sure u can do it, especially if u dotn have more than 500 calories a day after the cleanse like u have planned. definetely not something i could ever do tho, the ingredients sound awful!!!

[silverana]

WHOOOOOOWHOOOO!!
Finally the holidays are there!!!!
Im not going on any vacations, so I have a lot of time!
Tomorrow I start with going to the gym twice! Once in the morning and once in the evening. I hope that between these two times the instructors change. They already notice and comment on my going there every day, I dont want to know what they say when I go twice everyday...

Anyway, I may also start jogging outside again. The weather is perect for this!

I think it was a right decision to reduce the maple syrup in my drink, it tasted much to sweet. The drink itself doesnt taste that bad. I dont add very much cayenne pepper, I think its only there to keep the metabolism going, it has no cleansing effect. But I exercise, and so my metabolism shouldnt slow down. Anyway, the way I mix it, the drink actually tastes
just like lemons.

[nickytml]

i dont think they should say anything to you if u go to the gym twice or three times a day.. really its ur choice, i mean ur paying for the membership. maybe ur training for something - they dont know that lol

ya that drink is just too gross for me lol but im sure its doin great for u especially with all your exercise

running and goin to the gym 2 times a day would do wonders im sure

[silverana]

Youre right, it does wonders!
It must be months ago that I lost weight!
Finally I know that I can still do it! Actually I dont know if I really lost anything, because I didnt step on the scale yet. But I can see and feel it. My clothes sit more loose again, this should be a sign for weightloss, shouldnt it?

My only problem is that I start to hate the lemonade drink. At the beginning I thought, it tastes nice, it will be no problem to drink for two weeks or so. But by now Im really sick of it. In one week is my birthday, until then I have to be ready to eat normal again. So maybe tomorrow or somewhen in the middle of the week I break the cleanse. But after my birthday I want to start again. That means, as far as I can bear drinking that stuff for more than one day again. I wont to do it until the end of the vacation. Which is at the end of august.

[nickytml]

i guess that drink would get kind of boring after awhile.

u defientely need to take that break for ur bday thats ur day, u must enjoy urself

[silverana]

Again I didnt post for awhile.
The reason was that I was busy with exercising and getting my weight as low as possible before my birthday. So tomorrow is the day, and I dont think that I was that successful. During the cleanse I was, but after I broke it, I feel so fat again!!! Im a too big coward to step on the scale!

Whatever I weigh now, I will gain when I have to eat cake anyway. Tomorrow I dont have to eat, its rather the complete opposite! There will an open-air fitness event where they do the courses I join at my gym. And thats where I will spend my day!!! And also the one last chance to getmy weight under control. After that there is no escape anymore. My nephew has his birthday just two days after mine, so until the first week of august is over I will have to face several afternoons with my family and relatives and with food.

To my plans for august I can say that I decided against another cleanse. Lemons are not expensive, but Im not in the mood to buy them every second day. I will rather try to eat as less as possible.

[silverana]

Today was the first day on which I had to eat cake! &
I feel so disgusted and fat!!!!

I got three days for fasting until its saturday and I have to do it again. I hope I will have the time to exercise before.

[sailorv]

Aww, don't worry about the cake-if it makes you feel better, I have binged for the last two days, am am probably back at 166 if not more.
Good luck with the fasting, and Stay Strong

[beautiful_dreams]

[nickytml]

its ok hun!! its not like u have to eat cake everyday forever - its just a few outtings!! u can loose that weight asap