my zero challenge

[isaac me]

thanks!!
yeah the water really helps, it keeps me full too. and i know this will sound weird but im hoping it will keep my stomach from shrinking too much so that when i do eat its not a huge binge and have this tiny stomach that i cant hardly eat anything.
thats the mia side of me i guess. oh well.

good news is i havent purged in a week and 2 days!!

[isaac me]

OH
i get to update my ticker.
woooooo

[sailorv]

Congrats on your weight loss, and on not purging!
Stay Strong

[nickytml]

wow hun u are doin friggen amazing!!!! I am soooo proud of u!

yay for ur weight loss, and damn u are so strong! u have lastest so long. very smart for drinkin lots of water hun, that wil defientely at least keep u hydrated and somewaht feeling full

[Rose]

ahh updating you ticker always feels so good!! well done on not purging!! I havent purged in a while either!! I love the idea of a shrinking stomach, i always hope that it means i won't binge, but it doesnt really work like that *sigh* It just means that i'll be more bloated and in pain wheni do binge!

keep strong and take care

x

[isaac me]

well... i purged saturday. i just ate some and then freaked out. oh well.

113.8 today!
almost back to where i was a few months ago.

[isaac me]

wow i can't believe ive been doing this for a week. its the best i've ever done. i almost don't even think about it anymore. wake up, dont eat dont eat, sleep. wow

[nickytml]

wow that is so awesome hun! a whole week, holy cow!!!! u are so strong

that is so amazing that u dont even think about eating anymore - i couldnt have lasted one day, yet u are onto a week! great work hun!!!

[isaac me]

so for the past like three days ive been fasting all day then binging and purging at night. blech.
today that will not happen
NO.

I have two weeks left till my big trip and i must must must be at my goal by then.

today will be good.

wish me luck...

[nickytml]

drink lots of fluids during the day and even more at night so u feel really full and dont want to eat

got to step it up for the next 2 weeks - it will sooo be worth it

[isaac me]

uhg. i had the most horrible day today. BINGE. wednesdays i always binge. ick ick ick. i can't binge like this, tommorow HAS to be strict. no more binges. i cant do that anymore.
i binged on carby things and took some laxatives. i realllly don't want to purge. really. uhg. i feel like shit.

[Rose]

I'm sorry to hear that you don't feel too good, but you can get the control back, you been doing so well and lost so much weight!

! Well done for the 113.8!

And you know that you can go with out purging if not binging, you've done it before. You really have to stop purging. I know exactly how you felt when you took the laxative because you couldn't bring you self to be sick, and i guess its a start, just remember the "i really don't want to do this feeling" every time you are about to eat somthing that you will want to purge later.

maybe you could allow yourself somthing small in the evening, and that way it would stop the binge feeling because you would be in controll of what your having, it could be somthing small like 2 cubes of sugar free jelly (put the jelly mix into an ice cube tray, 8 cubes are 76cals)

Nicky is so right IT WILL BE WORTH IT!

Take care

Rosy

[isaac me]

eek thanks i hope so.
i had a b/p again yesterday, a really bad one too. painful. i can't purge anymore. no no no.
i remember the feeling of losing, i can do it again.
i will.

[isaac me]

blah fat fat fat bitch that is me
why cant i stick to anything
i go up and down 10 pounds every week
I HATE THIS

uhhhhhg

[nickytml]

i know how u feel hun! jsut hang in there - we will be skinnnny!!