A Skinny Journey...

[Skinny_Chick]

Nicky, thanks I'm just going to keep drilling that into his head, until he leaves. Which still should be the 13th.

Good news for this morning... 155.5 instead of 156. I've got a nasty case of pms, so maybe in a few days it will be a little lower. I'm not willing to switch the tracker yet. Back to the office, I'm not having anything today, still using the not feeling well thing. My stomach has been acting up lately so there's actual truth in that lately. We'll see tomorrow how that goes. *skinny vibes*

[Skinny_Chick]

Damn, trying not to eat today.... went to the gas station got 2 Sparkling *Aquafina* citrus, and berry... and 1 regular, good for the day I thought. Now, I'm trapped in my office because our contractor brought in doughnuts the good ones too. I WILL NOT HAVE ONE, I WILL BE STRONG! End of story. Just needed to vent that one. *Skinny* day to you all!

[Skinny_Chick]

YAY No doughnuts! Came back to the office and there's a damn chicken salad croissant on my damn desk! Hey, my boss bought lunch today. I'm just staring at it, I don't want it Thank god for that one lol. Still working on *Aquafina* #1 I have 2 more to go, I'll be fine except for some really bad cramps UGH My sugarfree gum is missing off my desk??? Hhhmmm, not real sure about that one. I might have to investigate that one later... More later on, probably before I go home.

[candy]

hey hun, nope I didn't run away, I just disappear every now and then trying to "recover" but it never works and I just end up more depressed the lower I go than before, for some crazy reason.

Good job on avoiding the doughnuts! That's always tough! and the chicken wrap doesn't even sound appetizing, so since you don't need eat, ignore it. You can do it!

Skinny vibes coming your way!

[Skinny_Chick]

I'm going to go for the ticker change this morning 154.0 yesterday it was 155.5 the day before it was 156.0 so.... I'm going for it. I've got to do a bunch of running before I go to the office today. Dealing with the state is a total brat. Drives me nuts! With any luck I won't eat today. We'll see about that one, fh is already wanting to know what he's eating this evening. Whatever, I don't have to eat it. I'll figure it out later or something. I'm unconcerned with his dinner at the moment. Waiting impatiently for the 13th. Can it come fast enough? I feel bad saying that, but I just can't deal with the phrase.. What are we eating? When are we eating? Will you stop and get fast food on the way home? Do you want me to pick up some chips? It's never ending, and I can't deal with it all the time. So, I want him to leave for a bit, then he can come home for a few days, then he can leave again. Takes a pile of stress off of me I know that.
I'm off to get some papers filled out, BUT FIRST.. I'm changing the ticker! *Skinny* thoughts for everyone today

[candy]

yay! you're down too! great job!

I totally know you feel with the whole "when are we eating what are we eating, I want food" thing. I'm an aupair, and I swear, it's all these kids think about.Ew!

Hope you have a great day! Skinny vibes!

[Skinny_Chick]

Hhmmmm, I may not feel well after this lettuce wrap.... No breakfast, lunch is a Jimmy John's veggie lettuce wrap a whopping 30 calories. I was freaking out about lunch, then I turned to my trusty CalorieKing. Which informed me that lunch was only 30 calories. It just means I don't have to kick myself harder than I already am lol.

***New news on fh's job prospects. He's probably leaving the 30th of July now If I can keep on track til then all will be FABULOUS!!***

My wrap is really big... I may not have all of it, in fact probably not, so damn my lunch with diet pepsi only 15 calories. I'm giddy about that!! Have a *Skinny* day. I should be around before I leave tonight.

[nickytml]

wow that is amazing that u had a wrap that was so little calories! and i am soooo proud of u for not eating a donut at work!! that is amazinggg

so july 30th - only like 10 days! u can do it hun... u are doing sooo well. just keep track - and hold onto that water bottle keep drinkin it all day so u feel full

and hopefully u can get away from eating chips and unhealthy stuff for now

[Skinny_Chick]

What a morning... apparently to much coffee and too many cigarettes my stomach is killing me. Damn scale is back up to 155.5 WTF, too much chicken broth last night?? Probably. Taking my daughter to dinner tonight, hopefully to some place with a salad or fruitplate. I feel as if I'm falling apart at the seams. The next time FH tells me that I "have to" either A) eat "normally" with him (hello huge quantity of bad food..EEWW) or B) "Finish the food on your plate" I'm going to blow a gasket and probably tell him to F... himself. Can't help it, I've told him I will NEVER be a member of the clean plate club, and my stomach can't handle any quantity of bad food. Seriously he doesn't listen AT ALL! So, before work I'm off to bitch at my therapist lol. I need some professional prospective on the financial train wreck, food roller coaster, mess of a family ( YEA MORE ON THAT LATER IT'S A WRECK! ) having guy that I have . He's giving me total issues lately and it's not just about food. Sometimes I wonder if I can handle all this. He's kind of irresponsible. So, yea there's WAY more to the story, but will fill that part in later. I'm off to the therapist, and today I'm thankful that there are therapists in this world, I need mine right now. *Skinny Skinny* day to you all!!

[candy]

Sorry to hear you life is so crazy right now! That's no fun, but you've got some one to vent to, which is good.

Sucks that FH is such a dick and doesn't listen, but I think it probably just makes him self concious about his food choices when you don't part take, and sorta makes him realize that he'd unhealthy, which makes him feel guitly, so he guilt trips you to fix his own guilt. Make sense? Hopefully he'll get it through his thick head soon that you're skinny and going to keep it that way!

Keep it up! Smile, it will help!

[Skinny_Chick]

Kicking myself with a mouthful of food Lunch, usual dreaded word of the day. Freaking McDonald's 1/2 small fry... 124 cal. 1/2 cheeseburger ... 150 cal. Total 274, gag me. And then there's dinner tonight. No way to skip it either, we're taking my daughter for dinner. Side salad in my only decent option, if I can force myself to eat it. I can't wait to fast, this whole being force fed is KILLING ME! More later. UGH, can't even purge at work

[Skinny_Chick]

Aaahhhh... small sigh of relief. Since the McDonalds incident earlier. My daughter has decided she would like McDonalds for dinner. Which therefore means I can have a home made fruit salad, seeing as how I supposedly had a full meal from McDonalds earlier ( oops white lie, 1/2 a small fry... 124 cal, and 1/2 cheeseburger 150 cal ) So for dinner I will have " Fruit Salad " 1 small apple chopped 50 cal and 5 grapes 17 cal, with the usual *Aquafina* Grand total for the day is going to be 341. And darn it, I will be proud of myself, even though I was TOTALLY WEAK at lunch, I didn't even think about finishing it, and I'm having what I want for dinner, and for the day I'm still under 500 calories. The bright spot of my day GO ME! I CAN DO THIS!! Thanks to you all!

** By the way, if you don't hear from me until Monday it's because I'm barely left alone on the weekends!! So, I may or may not be on. How ever, I'll be back Monday with the full weekends food updates!**

[Skinny_Chick]

Just a Saturday note, while I have 5 damn minutes without anyone here. Fiance's dad and his dads girlfriend are coming for dinner. I'll make the chicken, but damn it, I'm not eating it. If they don't like it then whatever. I don't care anymore. We went for chinese for lunch. Yep, side salad no dressing GO ME! I will NOT let everyone else's horrible food decisions affect me anymore. I can't go on like that. I will have only the things I want to eat, simple as that. I found fiance eating f****** potato chips with my 6 year old this morning at like 9am WTF. Could've killed him. So, from this point on I do NOT give a damn if ANYONE likes what I eat or not. I REFUSE to be pushed into eating crap ( hello, cheese puffs, potato chips, ice cream sandwiches ) Screw that. I'll be back Monday morning, hopefully with some progress on the scales A girl can hope right?? *Skinny skinny weekend to you all!*

[nickytml]

hopefully the rest of ur weekend went well hopefully dinner on saturday night went alrite..and u managed not to eat too much. dont worry about the mcdonalds, u didnt even finish it all we can get right back on track

[candy]

Hope your weekend went well too, I'm sure you did great on the saturday night dinner, since you were so mad at everyone. For me being mad is great motivation.
Maybe talk to your friance about "healthy food choices" for your 6 year old, becuase young ones shouldn't be eating junk that early in the morning, if adults want to screw themselves up that's fine, but don't mess up little kids, it's mean.

I don't know how anyone could stomach chips at 9am anyways! that's just gross!
skinny thoughts!