Recovery Dialogue

[airplane787]

Recovery Dialogue


you should eat something.
i don't want to eat something.
you should eat something.
i don't want to eat something.
you decided to eat, remember?
but i don't want to eat.
you wanted to get over this, remember?
no, i'm forgetting.
you should eat something.
i don't want to eat something.
i don't have to eat something.
no more obsessing over food, right? no more eating when i don't want to, right? no more dwelling on what i have or have not eaten, right? no more stress over food, right? so wouldn't making myself eat something when i really don't want to eat anything just be more forcing of the food issue and therefore counterproductive to my recovery?

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nice try. you should eat something.
fine, smartass, then what should i eat?
something healthy. look in the 'fridge.
nothing there i want to eat.
then look in the cabinets.
nothing there i want to eat.
then make something.
too much trouble. nothing i want to eat worth the effort.
but you should eat something.
yeah, we've established that. but there's nothing i want to eat.
then go get food to eat.
too much effort.
then eat something here.
nothing here i want to eat.
fuck you. go get something to drink.
there's water.
there are no calories in water. no anything in water.
but it's healthy and good for me.
okay, go get a glass of water.

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hey, weren't you going to eat something?
i did eat something.
no you didn't.
i had a glass of water.
a glass of water doesn't count as eating something.
yes it does. you approved it, remember?

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nice try. you should eat something.
i don't want to eat something. besides, i ate already.
you had five fat-free cookies.
that's a lot of cookies! i'm a pig.
five cookies?!
ugh. i'll make up for it.
damn right you'll make up for it.
...i'll skip lunch.
that was NOT what i was thinking.
five cookies can be breakfast and lunch.
five fat-free cookies is less than 250 calories.
that's a lot of calories.
no it isn't. you're feeding a baby. you're supposed to be eating over 2000 calories a day, and it's past noon, and you've only had 250 so far. you're slacking.

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oh. heh.
so you should go eat something.
i did eat something. the cookies.
we've established that 250 calories worth of fat-free cookies, no matter how healthy the cookies might have been, is not enough to constitute both breakfast and lunch when you're feeding a baby.

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oh, yeah, that.
so go get something to eat.
i'm full.
you are NOT full on five lousy cookies.
you forgot the water.
the water?
the glass of water. i'm really full.
christ.


from this site:::

http://www.freewebs.com/gypzi3/dialogue.htm


interesting words..to read...even if no one here wants to recover...
but interesting anyway...

[michellestar]

That is exactly what goes through my head during the few days I try to tell myself I'm 'recovering'.

Except the baby bit, cos I don't have one of them...

[faidra90]

omgg!!!OMG! this is exactly what i am thinking...wow! i thought that i was a a kin d of freak or that i have a double personality or something like that...lol...but its really hard at the beginning isnt it?...

[J.E.Z.I.K.@]

wow that is so true! that website is really interesting, thanks!

[isaac me]

wow.. that is exactly me. minus the baby.