New Year's Evolution

[omnifabulous]

About the gym thing, I go to a place called planet fitness and its called "judgement free zone" its 60 to start and 10 a month and it really does have all type of people young, old, fat, thin, athletic, etc. Its really neat I know its in md and pa and some surronding areas.. I dont know if there is one near you, maybe one near max.. maybe.. but yeah if you have one around check it out! they also have tons of tvs and sell headphones (or you can bring your own) I used to watch mtv and end up on the bike for like 40 mins.

[Freja]

[Hopelessly]

Month 2 of Evolution (Short Month Feb 7-March 1): 3lbs loss - 3lbs gain = 0lbs Total Loss

Guys i am a failure. thanks for your kind words Freja but i am a disaster area. After my last post i was so pissed off from not binging and still gaining that i thought fuck it, may as well binge. So i did for 2 days solid. Chips, chocolate, sweets, everything i could get my hands on. So of course up another lb to 117, right back where i started on the 7th of Feb. Expected it though.

I have decided on a number of factors. I am going to get myself oout of this funk. I am not going to crack and start to smoke again but i am not going to get any bigger either. So decided to cut this month short and start month 3 on the 1st instead of the 7th before i do any more damage. So new start today. Don't feel like i deserve to be on this site right now so am going to stay away til i get down to 113lbs - a brand new lowest weight. So an extra reason to be motivated now.

Take care guys, keep the spirit, and i'll be back as soon as i get my ass back in gear. xxx

[Freja]

I don't want to hear that you don't deserve to be here, you know that's bullshit. But I do understand where you're coming from. I hate posting in my journal that I've binged cos I feel so ashamed. And I just had an absolutely awful day again and I feel like I can't even blame it on the smokes anymore since its a few weeks since I quit now. But anyway...all the best hun, you know, and I know, you can do it. Hope to have you back soon, whatever the scales say, but I'm sure you'll reach 113 in no time at all. I'll be here sending skinny thoughts to you across the globe!

[Jennifer]

Don't stay away hun I'll miss you. We're all here for u! You've had such a rubbish time recently - don't put so much pressure on yourself.

So what you had a two day binge - you're still only 117 and you KNOW you can get back to 114.

If you do stay away then LOOK AFTER YOURSELF!!

Take care and stay strong
Jen x x x

[constance]

Do not stay away...on my goodness, we are here to encourage each other. I *need* to hear the praise, pats on the back, the kick in the butt...everything we do for each other. Coming here is what keeps me in line most of the time.

Let us encourage you...do not do it alone. We are a weird kind of club...lol...stick with us because we will stick with you!!!

*hugs*

constance

[Hopelessly]

Ok obviously i haven't been here in ages cos I'm totally confused.......have all the members journals been deleted?????