My private journey.

[itsjustme]

I'm back. Had a long busy day. Everything turned out very nice. I did NOT mess up. I am soooooooooo proud. The food looked delicious. Heck, I even had to make a few things myself. It looked so yummy. I did NOT mess up. I ate from the veggie tray. I didn't even get the lil dip that comes with it. And I ate from the fruit tray. That's it. I didn't have any punch!! Earlier today I ate 50 cals of okra, and a special k bar, and that's all. So...my cals were pretty low. I'm feeling a bit thirsty righ now, need to drink some water. Oh..and I hopped on the scale, don't know why...but I did, like soon as I got home. I guess I wanted to know if that 169 lbs was real or not. Well at 9:30 tonight the scale still said 169.0. So...that's great. Tomorrow is my official weigh in. A week ago I weighed 174.2. So..we'll see just how much I've dropped this week. I'm ready to know. Oh..I didn't go to the gym. No time. Don't know if I would have went anyway though. Ok..that's about it for now.

[itsjustme]

Oh...thanks a lot you two!!! It means a lot...really.

[itsjustme]

OMG!!!!!!!!!! I weigh 168.2 this morning. How on earth? Who cares how on earth...I did it. I weighed about 5 or 6 times and it was the same each time. That's a total of 6 pounds....this week!!I feel so much better, feel like I can finally breath again. Not that I just couldn't breathe before, but I just felt physically uncomfortable with myself. Even like while driving, something just didn't feel right. Too much weight on me. I can totally feel a difference, and see it. I haven't taken my weigh in pics for the day yet. I'm sure I'll be able to tell the loss. So this is the the end of 3 weeks for me. Just this week to go and it will be 1 full month. I gotta hang in there. I still have a long way to go. I am soooo close to my first goal weight of 165. I can almost taste it. I'm trying to come up with a goal weight for me this week. Not sure what I want it to be, because I don't want to set myself up for failure, you know. I just can't believe I've lost a total of 14.6 pounds in 3 weeks. You have no idea how I feel right now. As I've stated previously in my journal, I know the weight loss is gonna stop at some point. I'm soo not ready for it to stop, but I know it will. I hope I can continue to do as I'm doing...until I can begin to lose again. As long as the scale doesn't move in the other direction is what I'm hoping will keep me motivated. I think today will be the start of a great week, because I'm pretty excited. So....I'm gonna go with 166.8 as my goal this time. I know that's an odd number. It's a 1.4 weight loss. But if I lose it, it'll be a total of 16 pounds loss this month. I don't want to set myself up for failure this week. And if I exceed my expectations...boy...I'll be amzed and sooo proud of myself. So... 166.8 here I come. Just one step closer to 165. I am soo glad I am out of the 70's....soooo glad. Well...I need to go eat something. I think my cals will prob be up some this week. Don't think I want them super low this week. Ok..that's it for now..I guess.

[Freja]

Wow, congratulations! 14.6 lbs in three weeks! You rock!

I'm in awe.

[constance]

That is FABULOUS!!!!

Wow, what an achievement....feels good!!!!!

Keep going!

constance

[itsjustme]

I went to the gym at like 8:30 this morning. I only stayed 45 minutes. Was short on time. I ate some cereal b4 the gym...just one serving. Speaking of 1 serving..that's sooo tiny in cereal, 3/4 cup of this kind. Everytime I eat it I would think to myself how tiny a serving..how small it looks in my bowl Well yesterday for the 1st time, I started putting my cereal in a teeny tiny little bowl that fits perfectly, fills the little bowl up. Makes me think I'm eating so much cereal when I'm really not. It really works. I ate in the cafeteria a small salad w/some shredded cheese on it, cucumbers, cauliflower, tomatoes. Ate it with fat free dressing. Didn't use but a little squirt of dressing. Had like 2 forks of tuna. Was scared to get more cause I wasn't sure what all was in it, wasn't sure of the calorie count. Figured it was probably a lot. I ate grapes also. I ate an apple once I made it home after work, then a couple hours later I ate 100 cal popcorn. I had to judge a pageant tonight. It was really fun. Got paid for it too, so that always helps. They had snacks for us in our meeting area. I had some cheese cubes, olives, mixed fruit. They had sodas back there,but I drank water. I'm not sure of my calorie intake today. I know cheese is fattening, but I don't feel one bit guilty for eating it. If I'm not working in the morning I'm gonna see if I can get a good workout in.

[itsjustme]

Oh yeah..thanks for the congrats you two.

[itsjustme]

168.2 said the scale this morning. Same thing as Sunday. I still have 5 days to go til my official weigh in, so we'll see what happens. I haven' had anything to eat yet. I will here in a minute though. I have so much laundry I need to do, and some housework. So, I"ll be busy with that today. I so don't feel like it though. I need to get it out of the way first or it won't get done. Not sure what I want to eat this morning. Hmm..maybe I'll make some eggs. I don't know. Anyhow...I'm so close to goal weight 1. Maybe I'll be able to fit into some of my jeans again. I don't have much to talk about this morning. I'll check back later, gonna surf the net for a bit.

[constance]

Sweet...168 and going down!!

I really have to clean out my office today. It is scary in there. Paperwork galore from the last 5 years...things I thought I would one day use...you know how that goes.

I am set to get some of it done today though....I *have* to!!

constance

[itsjustme]

Today was a lazy day. I cleaned some, but I'm not done. I did laundry, so that's good. I didn't go to the gym. I ate 415 in cals so far. Seems like I ate a lot today, but once I added it up, it wasn't much. I felt a bit hungrier today, this evening. I think I need a lil snack before bed. I think I will. I must go to the gym tomorrow. I must. I will be without my scale for a few days. That's a good thing though. I'm definitely getting it back for my Sunday weigh in. I let someone borrow it. They're just starting out on a new plan and want to see numbers on the scale daily. The one at their gym has broken. So..I"ll get it back Sunday. It'll keep me from weighing. I can't believe Sunday will be the end of 4 weeks for me. I'm excited. I do need another great boost of motivation though. Because once you drop a few pounds you start to feel more comfortable with yourself. I don't feel so stuffed right now. But I know I'm nowhere near where I need to be. I need to look at it as if 168.2 is my starting point, as if I haven't lost an ounce yet. 145 seems soooo far away still. 23.2 pounds to go. GRRR!

Question...for those of you who have lost close to 40 pounds, how did you continue losing. Like once you lost say 20 pounds, to lose the other 20 did you change your diet, lower cals, up cals...did you up your exercise..or did you do everything exactly the same the whole time throughout. Just a question that came to mind. Any input would be appreciated. Thanks.

Well...I guess that's it for now.

[constance]

Hey girl. You always seem to be assuming that things are going to slow down for you...soon. You know, they might not. I lost at a pretty steady rate. You would have to look back at my journal for details....however, keep doing the right things. The only result to eating less and exercising more is weight loss. Your body tends to plateau at times, but eventually kicks back in gear. When it does plateau, give yourself a high calorie day or two...like 1,000-1,500 calories. Try not to make it junk and high carb, because that just retains water and you will see the scale go up a couple of days.

When I look back at my journal, I see that it was my choices that made me stall or plateau. I think that my own weakness is what slowed things down. If I stayed the course perfectly, I would have lost faster. However, I am definitely not perfect and we must allow ourselves some room to detour, in the sense that we do not beat ourselves up over it.

You are doing great. Keep a positive attitude, expecting to continue to lose. You might surprise yourself!! If you do stall for more than a few days...posting your menu and letting us critique it, as it were, might help.

Keep working it!!

constance

[itsjustme]

Thanks Constance.

Worked all day today. Didn't go to the gym. Finished my cleaning. YAY! Feels good. Like seriously..tomorrow,I'm hitting the gym. Like..seriously. I don't have a whole lot to talk about today really. I almost forgot to write, but thought about it just a second ago. I've had 380 cals today. The night's not over yet, but if anything I'll have a jello cup or just a little something. I need to get me some more whipped cream. I miss it. I can't think of what to write right now. Ha. I'll check back.

[itsjustme]

I went to the gym today. I did 50 minutes on the cybex, then did my arms, ab crunch thingy, press backward thingy, inner and outer thighs. 2 sets of each. Had about 600 cals today. I'm pretty tired. Just got done watching a movie. I think I'm going to bed, I'm tired.

[itsjustme]

I went to the gym today. Lifted weights...total body workout. I did to sets of each...12 reps. I did 30 min. on the cybex. Today felt like a Saturday...well..is still feeling like a Saturday. I had to get my workout in today because I have to go at least 3 times a week. So..if I go tomorrow..that's extra...don't know if I will or not. It's almost weigh in time. I hope I meet my goal for this week. I've had 2 servings of cereal so far today. I'm hungry right now. Gotta go eat.

[itsjustme]

HAPPY EASTER!!! It's 7:30 am and I've already been to church. We had early service...sunrise service at 5:30 a.m. Today is my official weigh in day. I just got on the scale a minute ago. I weigh 167.8. I was 1 pound shy of my goal for this week. The bad part...I didn't lose but 0.4 pounds this week. The good part...I still lost. The good part...I'm hoping for a nice loss this coming week since only a 0.4 pound loss this past week. My total loss for 4 full weeks is 15 pounds on the dot. That number sounds great to me. 15 pounds in a month. So..I'm happy about that. I can't believe a whole month has passed. A month ago...I was pretty down because of the weight gain, but things are starting to look up again. I'm soooo close to my first goal weight. I hope I can make it this week. Yeah...I can. My goal weight for this week is 165. That's 2.8 pounds that I need to lose. Oh..and get this....my measurements...I measured one month ago..and measured now. I lost 2 1/2 inches in my waist...well it's not really my waist to me..it's the smallest part of my body though,right below my boobs, where it goes inward....what I wish was my waist. I lost 2 1/2 inches in my waist...well...the fattest part of my body...love handles. I lost 2 inches in my hips and 1 inch in my thigh. So....that's very good to know. I'm glad I measured a month ago. I had almost forgotten that I had. Well...it's the beginning of a new week..beginning of month 2 for me. I hope I can continue to stay on track. Well..I must get back in bed for now.