lucy's journal<3

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my boyfriend is gone till september 15tha nd now i'm an emotional fuck. basically he is a lot of motivation to be thin, b/c obviously he sees my body a lot and i want it to look good. so i binged yesterday for some stupid reason, i don't really know why. weighed 115.8 today. that's fucking horrible. TOday I'm eating only 700 calories [i've had 500 so far and it's only 4 am.. yeah i get up early] so that tomorow i'll be 114.4. the next day, 113.0, & etc. that will work out fine. luckily school doesn't start for another week. my gw for the first day is no more thatn 113.0, so 112.8 max. but anyways i miss my boyfriend already and need him badly........... agh.. this is gonna be tough but I know I can do it;)
btw I have stuff to do so why don't i just spend my time doing that. like reading for my a.p. english class (!!!!!!!!) ya that's what i'll do today.
<3333 lucy

[nioula7]

I hope you don't mind me making a suggestion. Maybe you could carry something of your boyfriends around with you as a reminder that way you wont be tempted to binge again.

Hang in there and you will do better than fine.

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am i supposed to post my new entry as a reply er something? we'll see.
anyways today I did pretty good, though that's not saying much. I predict weighing maximum 114.4 tomorow, which means I lost 1.4 in a day. I drank so much water too, so I know it can't be just water weight. I ate around 700 cals;-D...
So I am getting to where I want to be.. 111. 111 by the 1st day of school.
w00t wish me luck

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4am day 2: 114.8 lbs. Lost 1 lb yesterday.
do better today & weigh 113.4 today.
ickie.. but I can do it. I hate being seen at this weight.. it's just these 2 extra lbs i acquired from my moderate binge a few days ago that are driving me crazy,making me stay in and stuff.
agh. i can do this.