Kit's Journal

[constance]

Good to see you back!

[omnifabulous]

yessm I am back. I was depressed yesterday and when im depressed and sleep deprived and stop eating i get loopy so Ill just go from here.

Ok so as you all know i have been working at hot topic and the resturant and living with my grandparents in md etc etc. This weekend I went to pittsburgh with my bff alex to visit some friends. It was alot of fun and it was good bonding time with her. Girls drink free in pitt at college parties which is sweet. I got to chill with Phil and read comic books and watch xmen for a little. Anyways yeah wont bore you with the details. In other news I made up an appointment I had no idea how I did that. Sucks, so Im taking adderall instead of vyvanse which annoys me cause I actually like vyvanse better.

Dan got me a book on psychic developement and me and phil are actually extremily good sending and recieving.

Umm also my grandfather is dying which is a bummer, im very numb to it right now, cause im extremily good at pretending things arent actually happening or exist. Hot topic wrote me up cause I was acting funny and they were worried about my health or something stupid I dont really care I mean its their job I have no hard feelings, i didnt get fired so its cool. I went to the resturant to eat with my gma and aunt (although I refused to eat there myself which will probably only make them assume even more that im ana) and that bitch hostess was like:
"Why bother, your not going to make it"
"excuse me?"
"Your not going to make it coming in one day a week (the first 2 weeks I was there 4-5 days a week only last week was I there one)"
"Im sorry I have two jobs I just got off my other one"
"oh you have two jobs i didnt know that (in her best fake nice voice)"

No offense to anyone here but im starting to officially hate greeks.

[omnifabulous]

So they took the breathing tube out of my gpa and he doesnt have long to live. I spent the night in jail friday.. umm.. etc. I have gained like 6 lbs but I feel like its a million and everyone can tell. Btw I tried clicking on the pro ana boards and it keeps saying they dont exist? anyone else with this problem?

[omnifabulous]

Im doing this: its one of the archived diets on college skinny props

You must keep an accurate account of your points and how
you got those points.

the diet:::
Every day you start out with 100 points
The goal is to get as close as possible to Zero.
So you will subtract from that. You can reach zero and still have numbers..
this means you are doing great...no rollover negative points!!!
You can deff. get negative number.

Calories:::
Fasting/99 -50
100/299 -40
300/499 -30
500/699 -20
700/899 -10
900+ -00

Allowed drinks incl. water, coffee, diet sodas, 100% natural squeezed juices,
(when I say natural I mean you squeezed it or someone made it right there out of
natural fruits)
1% or fat free milk.
You don't have to count the calories of this things.

the workout:::

1 hour -30
Each 30 mins after that -10
30/59 mins -20
15/29 -5
15 crunches -5
50 crunches -10
100 crunches -15
15 pushups -5
15 squats -5
DDR burning more than 300 calories in workout mode or 30 mins -20

Extras:::
4 glasses of water -5
8 glasses of water -10
1 c. of greentea -5
Multivitamin -5
Updating xanga -5
Commenting fellow classmates -5
Binging +5
Purging +10
Eating after 7 +5

So far today i have not eaten and ive done 30 sit ups is that like crunches? either way ill update my points at the end of each day.

[omnifabulous]

My grandfather died today. It really hasnt sest in yet... I havent hardly eaten in two days either so I didnt gain as much as I thought. I just want to get back down to 108 so bad..