Fat Country, Thin Culture

[thebellydancer69]

So I fell off the wagon one day this week, but I jumped back on it with a vengence. So for the three days I was on board, the 5-bite-diet has helped me lose 4.5lbs. As a result, I am no longer in the 190's. I can still easily shoot back up to that so I have to play it extra careful today. I think I would like to up the ante today and drink my smooth moves tea. I don't mind drinking it since it is clearing out anything that is sitting in my bowels. Hopefully, I can find more work for next week because work is a good way to avoid eating full meals if you bring your own lunch. Well, I will update you on my progress. The upcoming Sunday I will post my stats and tally up my total first week weight loss and hope I will get down to the lower 180s. I also plan on going to the gym this weekend. Hell, I am paying for it so I might as well go.

[thebellydancer69]

Well, her I am at the end of the first week of the 5-bite-diet. The results are in......187.5!!! I have been eating less as a result of it, but it has helped me restrict and lose 5.5lbs in a week. I am finally under 190 again. I wonder how long it will take to get to 150? I am not sure...If I followed the plan everyday and hadn't messed on those 2 days, I probably would have saw that 10lb loss. So next Sunday night I hope I can give you a good report on my weight loss. TTFN.

[thebellydancer69]

Look at my stats on Thanksgiving Nov 26, 2007
End of November: 182 (minimum)
XmasGW: 173 (minimum)
NYGW: 164 (minimum)
I guess this was me trying to make it to New Years at the same weight I left HI. Can you believe my goals haven't really changed in a year. If fact I am the same weight I was last year when I set those goals. My face is so round I can't belive it. I really hate seeing it in the mirror. I need to keep men away until I get my weight issues together. It seems like everytime I date I tack on 10-20lbs without trying. It is not like they are taking me out all the time, damn. As of this point I am not going for a New Years weight loss, I am going for a Vegas weight loss. Xmas vacation this year is in Vegas I am trying to get to 140 in 7 weeks time. I started this as soon as I decided to go to Korea for work. However, I need to drop as much as possible before February, the month I live for Korea. That is why I was soul searching for this board. I still never found the other journal I had when I dropped from 182 to 140. I can't remember what I did, but I do know one thing: my mother is not as big on eating junk or eating as frequently as my sister. She tries to be helpful, but taking advice from a 68 inch woman with 2 kids, who has never been larger than a 7/8 is defeating. Plus, having her tell me what I can't eat and eating that particular food in front of me is insulting. Yet she likes to tell my niece all the time that I don't have a healthy relationship with food. Thanks for the mixed support babe. Anyways, I am only ordering a diet coke if she takes me anywhere to eat because I can't continually allow her to sabotage my efforts. I got to stop engaging her in conversation when it comes to my body. To make matters worse, I am talking to one of my BFFs in NYC and she is so happy and comfortable with herself. She has focused her energy on working out with the Firm workout series and has lost over 40lbs putting her back to the size she was in H.S. I want it as bad as she did, but she has been consistent and determined about dropping dress sizes (she likes to say that instead of losing weight). I would like to be a 5/6 again, but my brain is pretty fucked up right now.
Yesterday was badf
Breakfast: Loaded Burrito with Double Western Bacon Burger (1790)
almost 1800 calories by 9:30-I couldn't count anymore after that
Mango Smoothie large
Cookie Dough
KFC Hot and Honey Barbeque wings
I must have have more or less 4000 calories yesterday. I can't do that anymore. I have 8 days of phentermine left and I am going to use them after 12noon everyday. I do have Red Devils too with phenphen. I can take 2 before a workout and one later since you can't exceed 3 a day. I think for this week, seeing that is has helped me drop below 190, I am going to do the 5 bite diet and then fast for the next week. I hope I have something different to report.

CW: 190 something to scared to check
11/23GW: 160 or less (mid-point before the Vegas trip)
LVGW: 140
Dropping over 50lbs in 7 weeks isn't healthy, but I don't give a shit at this point. All that stuff I ate yesterday wasn't healthy either.

Good luck all.

"Don't feel like a sinner, to want to be thinner, if it makes you feel like a winner."

[thebellydancer69]

Again with the fucking binging! A trip to Carl's Jr yesterday put over 3000 calories in my body. I am scared because it is like being on a roller coaster where the twist and turns can't be seen before getting on it. My stomach is a mess today so no work. I feel I don't know how to go back in time and do what I did before to lose the weight, but I do need to progress and move forward. I am punishing myself with a water fast from now until Turkey Day. I don't care what anyone says anymore. Oh yeah I still have a weeks supply of phentermine and I haven't been using it at all. I have to take it after 3pm so I won't get hungry in the evenings.

[thebellydancer69]

I am 192.5 tonight. I was 192 earlier, but I didn't work out and I ate some chocolate. I need to get something low-cal, low-fat, and sweet so I can't mess up. I have been watching my calories and trying to do my exercises at home. I notice if I don't go to the gym I dont work out at all so I am going to have to incorporate some gym time after work. I dont care it is only an hour, it is still a calorie burn.

[thebellydancer69]

the last i checked, i was 190.5.The gym has become a family place, but my problem is that my fam wants to leave after 1 class. I am going to have to tell them to let me stay while they leave because it doesn't help me in the long run.

[thebellydancer69]

Okay...so I have found something to help me stop night binging. It is called hybrid 7 and it is supposed to work during "dark hours". I take it with lunch and dinner since they are the 2 heaviest meals of the day. I didn't think it was working until I didn't take it yesterday and today. What do you know? BAM!!! Night binging on ice cream, candy, and chips. I can't take it forever, but I am trying to get it to help me form the habit of no eating after 8pm (I sleep later than most). Also, I ran out of cottage cheese, which is now my ultimate snack food since it is low-cal, low-fat, and high in protein. I will have to drink diet tea tonight and go to the gym tomorrow. I did notice the self-sabotage going on with me. I am going to start trying on clothes that don't fit anymore to help motivate me. This way I will remember not to over do it.
I wish I could drive so getting to the gym would be no problem for me. I would only attribute my not going to being fat and lazy. My membership expires March 4. I would have to form home workouts and body weight workouts.
The last time I got on the scale was this morning and it said 190.5 and I jacked it up the same evening. I am going to attempt to combine 1.diet tea, 2.hybrid-7, 3.Red Devils (for workouts), 4. the Five Bite Diet, and 5. cottage cheese (once/twice a day), 5.gym workouts, and 6.journaling. I want to see if with the right combination of weight loss tricks if I could drop a significant amount of weight in a weekend. Nothing big just significant like 5-6lbs. This way I could lose a certain amount of weight in small increments until I reach 1-1-9. I will keep this posted for the next 3 days. I wonder if it will work? I could really use a miracle right now.