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oh I haven't been here in such a long time..mostly cos I have a book diary and a xanga blog.........I'll try to get something in nevertheless..........I can't right now as I have only a few minutes left on the pc and I could never fit it inin time.

bytheway my xanga blog is http://www.xanga.com/wide_loadED

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hey haven't been here for a while but I need a place to record my feelings......book diaries always get found and read by some nosy family member.

What's up, I feel really good today because I was at home all day by myself and ALL I had 2 mini bags of crisps, crap I know but all I have had since that time, 10:30, is 2 coffes and water.

Also I cleaned up the whole house, I moped the living room and kitchen I washed the dishes and pots, I moped and scrub all three toilets and I cleaned my moms, my sisters and the computer room ( the one people work in)

I also made dinner for everyone and I danced my but off all the time I was doing this, lol.
but coffe has a wierd effect on me and I have been shaking ever since this morning when I had my first cup.......I don't care it makes me active and constantly moving around I can't sit still.

I Hope I lose weight ,at least a pound.

Anyway It's great to be back and LOVING THE WEIGHTLOSS at the moment.

take care and think thin peeps..............by the way that link don't work no more, I deleted it when I left my dieting I got a new one though and if anyone here has one just give me a shout yeah, it is always apreciated. xanga.com/flappinbelly

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[color=cyan]Well today was a religious celabration and the house was packed with juk food.......man it was like carnage.........I didn't feel so bad cos I knew this was going to happen usually there are no junk treats in our house but on occasions like these I can't help myself...........I am having the same old thoughts "you're weak, you're worthless" but there is no need to keep saying it cos I already no it......Yesterday I had nothing to eatt just coffe and lost 2lbs which I probably gained...........back to the beginning.[/color]

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hey what happened to te proana site.....eeeeekkk!! I go for a couple of months and the next thing I know everythings missing..eeeekk. Anyway I finished my exams and I have to wait for results on 14th of august...I just can't think about that right now. I really hope I do well, god willing,

Please someone let me know, I just need to get back on track now that exams are out of system......bbrrrr shake of just shaking it of, lol.
just looking at some of my posts I can't believe I ate that little sometimes....man I got to try and get back to that asap.

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it has gotten really dead around here! i used to be on here all the time - i finally got back into things again when i too finished up with school and came home for the summer. barely anyone here anymore

but having a place to post really does help... since i havent been writing here i havent lost anything much :S