Confessions of a Wannabe Waif...

[isaac me]

I know EXACTLY how you feel, about there being no middle ground. it sucks and it's hard but you just have to work with it.
i am also trying to get over mia already, i haven't in three days and its constantly in the back of my mind, but its possible.

lettuce is not bad at all! lol. keep up the good work!

[JustAnotherGirl]

I'm starting the GM diet again, since that's what caused me to lose the most weight most quickly. I'm getting married in August and I need to look good in my dress!
Nobody wants to look at a fat, disgusting, ugly bride!

I'm already freaking out because I ate an apple. I'm determined not to throw it up, but it's hard. I just keep telling myself that this worked last time, so it HAS to work this time, too.
Unfortunately I forgot to weigh myself today to see what my starting weight was since I thought I was running late this morning (I ended up getting to work an hour early...whoops!), so now I'm kicking myself.
I can't weigh myself at all later today, either since you have to drink so much water and water weighs a lot, so it throws off the scales. Darn

[JustAnotherGirl]

And since I binged and purged the first day of the GM diet I decided not to do it anymore... At least not 'til I get my control back. Which is why I joined the fasting thread that's going on right now.
I've done really well. I hadn't eaten since Sunday and yesterday I was having a hard time staying conscious. Then, last night I got really nauseous and this morning I was really, really, really weak and needed to be able to go to work (I have 2 jobs), so I ended up eating an egg white this morning and I feel a lot better. I'm so glad I haven't given into my cravings and binged!

[JustAnotherGirl]

Well, it's been a while... I've been too busy to go on the internet much, and my life has just basically turned into one big binging/purging fest... I feel so gross and disgusting all the time and it's a wonder why my husband even finds me attractive anymore! What's worse is, starting next week I will be alone at my office all day and then my husband is away with work, so I'm basically alone all day and night. Which makes it really hard to avoid binging:-/
I don't really binge at work most days because people are all around and I have the hardest time eating even normal things in front of anyone, let alone binging on unhealthy foods, but with everyone in my office (it's a family owned office) going overseas together, that just opens up a whole can of worms... I would say that I just won't take anything but what I want to eat with me, but then my husband is away so I have food at home that I end up binging on once I'm there. I used to just go to sleep when I would feel the urge to binge, but now I always have stuff to do around the house and so if I go to sleep, everything will get disorderly and out of control.
Argh! I hate my husband's job!

[JustAnotherGirl]

It's been a few months and I'm totally bummed that the pro ana threads are gone... I have nowhere to go to now for advice or just to vent... The groups of people on the forums here were always so supportive and just plain awesome! I haven't found any other forums that are like that.

[Irishka]

Hi!

We have a new forum now!

http://livingwithed.yourbb.nl/index.php

See you there!!