Carpe Diem

[ThinMint06]

you're going to have a blast!!!
JEALOUSY!!!
i need a trip

[Tina]

I'm back!
Have had the BEST time, and what a tan!!!
sunny, warm, hitting the most amazing beach every day, making good use of my new bikinis. Sad to say food every day but who cares??? (Ummm....) Probably gained 2 kgs, but have not had the courage to even LOOK at the scale yet. Postponing it a couple of days, I think.
I'm right back on track, no food today, but one welcome home beer with friends.
I'm totally in love with the bf, he's the best.
No time now, back later!
Summerlovin' to all you beautiful anagirls

[Tina]

Quick post.
I caved and stepped on the scale; I haven't gained at all!!!!!!!!!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
It's kind of funny though, cause Italy was a lot of food!!!!
hmmmm

[nickytml]

yayy for not gaining at all!! that is super wicked - way to go!! welcome back of course tooo great job to get right back into the swing of things. its time to kick butt

[Tina]

Thanks Nicky!
Going on a road trip with the boyfriend today, probably be back on thursday. We're just gonna drive around and sleep at random b&b's along the road. Hopefully very romantic.
3 more weeks before i go back to work!!! Ahhh bliss

[nickytml]

wow that must be super nice to have that much time off!! lucky u have a great time hun

[Tina]

back again!!!!
have had a great time!!! the downside is all the food...scared of the scale again. Will do my best to restrict to 400 cals a day, fasting is out of the question as the bf insists on us having dinner together every day. Seeing as all of my friends are out of town, I have no other plans, and I WANT to be with him. He starts work on monday, so that'll give me a breather I guess.
the plan is to eat nothing all day and then have dinner with him but really try to eat as little as possible
i wanna loose so bad!!!! have decided to aim for 57 kgs. that's going to be really hard but i think i can do it

[Tina]

Better today, able to focus
lots and lots of coffee all day.... going to bed soon
haven't seen the bf today, probably tomorrow
feel like i've gained 5 kgs!!! all mentalweight for sure
summer sucks in norway this year, only 15 degrees Celcius and cloudy/rainy every stinking day...hard to be motivated when you can't go to the beach etc...
Good night girls

[nickytml]

glad to hear that ur back hun im sure it is all mental weight. but eating that one meal with ur b.f is at least a good plan. i mean this way he sees ur eating and he wont quesiton anything.

the weather here is jsut amazing, but i still avoid the beach - im too ashamed to show my fat self in a bikini. especially around all these tooth pick girls. its not fair

[Tina]

a good day, two skinny-latte, no solids!!!!
feel like i'm back on track, although fragile
need to focus badly
going out with friends, but only gonna have dietpop and black coffee
why do i feel like such a failure? it's like the fact that i've lost over 10 kgs doesn't matter anymore, i feel just as fat as before. sometimes i compare my body to others just to get an idea of where i'm at cause i can't tell anymore. i have no idea what i look like to others. do they see me as fat or skinny, or maybe just normal? arghhhhhhh i hate obsessing

[nickytml]

i feel that way about myself too - its hard to remember that ive lost a bunch of weight. i just look to the present day and wonder why i am not any skinnier!

but ur doin very well today - hopefully the rest of the day stays taht way too! i am sure u will see progress tomorrow

[Tina]

crossing my fingers, now
so far today dodged both breakfast and lunch with the b.f, he came home from work -i was hanging out in his app watching heroes- SURPRISE: to take me out to lunch! I told him i'd allready eaten, no problem, i just had coffee and (damn it) two cigarettes. i know it's bad for me, and i don't wanna go down that road again, using cigs as a diet
AND i got the most beautiful longstemmed roses!!! mmmmm
now, my running shoes are calling me

[nickytml]

awwww u got roses! that is soo nice - im jealous

way to go on avoiding breaky and lunch! u kick ass!! u seem to be gettin right back on track - u are goin to do super great

[Tina]

Summer seems to keep me away from my computer!
I'm having a good time, still off from work for another week. Going to Denmark tonight with a friend, another road trip, but it will be so much more fun when it's all girls!!! Be back on thursday, probably.
Dietwise it's all good, I'm sticking to my plan. feeling some anxiety when I DO eat, but nothing I can't cope with. it's easier to deal with those feelings when you know why you get them. sometimes i'm able to talk myself out of it relatively quick.
Trying on my skinny jeans from 3 years ago almost every day, it gives me a great kick, i've dreamt of fitting into them for so long!!! and now they're suddenly to big for me....ha ha ha ha i laugh in all the faces of those who didn't think i could do it hmmmm- somewhat aggressive today? i'm like a rollercoaster, i change my personality several times a day
just like my feelings about my body change from hour to hour. i'm a mess, a very strange and neurotic girl
will not eat at all today, not gonna see my bf, and i wanna slim down for the road trip
have a great sunday!!!!!

[Tina]

Back from Denmark! It was sooo good. But a lot of food.
We met some american guys travelling through Europe, they were so cute!!!! My friend hooked up with one of them, and she's all heartbroken about us coming home...poor girl
So now that summer's over and work starts again, I'm gonna get right back on track:
No more than 400 cals a day for the weekend and next week. After that I'll try fasting for a week, just cause i remember how well i did last time and the results!!!!
I want to drop to under 60 kgs. I have no idea if i've gained, but probably have and refuse to even look at the scale. maybe weigh in on sunday.
also, will try to be more active in this forum, it makes it easier for me to focus if i come here every day.
going over to my bf later, haven't seen him in a week, can't wait!!!
Back tomorrow!