back with a vengeance

[crystallinegreen]

Well, Im back. Ive been in and out and in and out of recovery; in hospital out of hospital and I am so beyond sick of doctors.

So I was ok; I wasnt fat I wasnt thin, I was just regular then everything changed. I broke up with my bf after 3 years of living in love and bliss; we were so in love..we still are... we just want different things from life but I have to ask myself is that the real reason or is it because I had turned into a HUGE FAT HEFFER

Yes he may have said he was worried about me, that I should eat more but it seems like a huge coincidence that when I finally get to an OK weight everything falls apart? So now I need control and the last couple of weeks Ive been eating 500 cals or less or fasting and Ive managed to lose 7lbs Im determined to keep going, 126lbs for starters (I'm 136 just now) and then 112 UGW which i think is perfect for my 5ft 8 frame

So Im looking for msn buddies any offers?

xxx missed you all xxx

[crystallinegreen]

I ate like a HORSE over the weekend cause I was drinking and I am now carrying water weight plus I have my period...its a massive pain in the ass.

back on to a super diet today - so far I have had a tin of tuna with half an onion and 3 cherry tomatoes. OH and a can of diet coke which Im trying to cut out too.

If Im starving I'll have some soup later...hopefully not.

xxx

[ashling]

Hey hun..
U sem realy determnet and i wish u all the luck to reach ur goals..x

[crystallinegreen]

Well I made it to 126 and I havent slipped up once in the past couple of weeks, I have no idea how...maybe Im feeding on the misery of my breakup.

Im still on under 500 a day, have fainted a couple of times but I think thats cause Im working out so much, went for a run before work this morning and going to hit the gym after Im done so hopefully I'll be on negative cals by the end of the day

xx

[crystallinegreen]

124 and still feeling ok, i discovered hartleys less than 10kcal jelly which is doing great to curb my sweet tooth

[marjaana84]

Hi!
I swear I just made some Jelly myself, same brand. It's brilliant!

Anyway, just wanted to say that. Funny coincidence

Good luck with your goals and stay strong!

[crystallinegreen]

Had a MAJOR binge last night and I feel like crap today but I got up at 6am and went for a run then Im going to the gym after work - too scared to get on the scales and see what damage Ive done

Hardly anyone uses this anymore - so odd, I remember the days when it was constant!

x