Anyone trying to stop bingeing and purging?

[michellestar]

[thinisbeautiful]

Recently i noticed that my glands are swollen under my jaw and my face looks bigger. Does anyone know how to get rid of that and how long it takes? I'm trying to "recover", but i have a hard time going more than 1 day with out b/p. I was doing it 2x a day but my face i'm scared will get bigger-it doesn't hurt or anything, just physically it's making me depressed. I'm able to eat a piece of fruit or something during the day, but i can't seem to control my eating i turn into this monster. I normally would purge up anything i ate even if it was a pickle. I used to not even like the feel of water in my stomach, luckily i got over that. I was a personal trainer and I was just muscle and i was going to enter a fitness pagent. My weight went up to 123 pounds because my guy would like me at 130 pounds, but when i was 123 lbs. i felt fat and soft and now it's gone way too far. In a couple weeks my 3 year old son and i are going to a overnight camp for a week and I will not be able to b/p the whole time so that will be my inpatient treatment. I can't remember the last time i went more than a day without b/p. My big problem is at night when i'm in the bed watching tv, it's like i don't know how to watch tv without being a pig!