A Skinny Journey...

[Skinny_Chick]

DAY 2 of fast... As usual, I was the one to get lunch for the office, and YET AGAIN I MADE IT THROUGH THE DRIVE THRU WITH ONLY A DIET PEPSI! If I felt powerful yesterday I feel twice as powerful today! I'm feeling FANTASTIC today
Once again I'll be cooking dinner tonight, I really like to cook, I just don't eat... Is that strange of me? That way I can make sure future hubby actually gets a healthy meal. He's all about his veggies but when you sautee them in butter that's just TERRIBLE. So, when I cook for him I can at least cut down his risk of heart attack lol. Hope you all are having a skinny day! Love you all

I'd love some feedback on the subject of loving to cook, but not eating, I often wonder if I'm CRAZY!?!?

[Freja]

Hi,

I know what you mean. I love cooking for other people which is good cos my boyfriend loves to eat what i cook. It's a great feeling to prepare food and not eat it yourself, it's a powerful feeling. And i hate cooking stuff for myself, when i'm alone and i eat i usually binge on stupid, unhealthy shit and don't even really taste it. When i was living on my own i never had any food in the house, i would either not eat, or if i went to the supermarket i would just scoff everything i'd bought pretty much straight away and then not eat again for a while. So it's good now to have someone to cook for, cos preparing food makes me happy (maybe i should've just become a chef). And then when my boyfriend eats I'll just have a little bit for show, he thinks i have a big lunch everyday. Although i have to say he never really questions my eating habits.

Anyway, i don't think you're crazy, and i actually read somewhere a few years ago that it's really common for people with EDs to enjoy preparing food, but not eating it. I guess it comes from our obsession with food.

[Skinny_Chick]

Wow Freja Thank you! I don't feel quite so wierd anymore... I thought I was the only one who liked to cook, but not eat. It sounds wierd to me, but at least I am not alone

DAY 3 of the fast, the scale seems to be stuck at 149 this morning, but when I go for months and months between fasts which is what I did this time, the first fast always seems slower with less of a loss. Subsequent fast are usually a faster weight loss for me, but I'm off to a good start which I suppose is what really counts. Tomorrow I may start some light salad or soup I am the soup queen! That way future hubby won't be all over me about how little I eat. I tend to eat really slowly, and give him whatever I don't eat, seems to work nicely. At the office, have to get to work, and it's very dark and pouring rain here... hopefully I can stay in the office. Be back later! Love you all! Skinny

[Skinny_Chick]

I am lucky today, everyone in the office came in with breakfast except me .... therefore magically no one has asked me to get the office lunch yet. With any luck someone else will finally do it so that I don't have to. Although I'm running out of *Aquafina* I thought I brought enough, but I must have shorted myself today. I'll have to go get more. Love to you all!

*Edit*..... Managed to get the office to eat Wendy's today for lunch where I can have *Aquafina* and Diet Pepsi, my favorite fasting things ( besides (peppermint tea ) at the office I'm still feeling ok, future hubby wants to know whats for dinner UGH, will have to appease him somehow, he wanted to know a few days ago why all I ever have for dinner is salad... when he wants meat, potato, and veggies and don't forget the bread and butter with that either I can't bring myself to touch those things UGH

So, if anyone has any tips on how to handle the overeating meat and potato eating future hubby please let me know! I've been using the " Honey, I had a 4pm lunch " excuse so much it's running out of power. HELP!..... *Edit*

[Skinny_Chick]

YIKES! Bad way to break a fast 1/2 of a tall Starbucks Nonfat Sugar Free Vanilla Latte.... 68 cal..... 1 oz ( yes I weigh my food even at the office ) Panera Bread Asiago Cheese bagel 74 cal.... 142 cal for breakfast I'll live, I'm about to have 2 liters of water..... We'll hope for a better rest of the day. Love to you all!

[Skinny_Chick]

Lunch seems to be an UGLY word today. 1 liter of water... 0 cal, 5 oz chicken and rice with veggies soup.... 60 cal, and 1/4 of a plain toasted bagel.... 65 cal. Total 125 cal.

Breakfast and lunch are totaling 267 cal for the day. Dinner won't be more than 200 cal, which will still put me under 500 for the day. I like 0 better, but between future hubby and the office, I can't have people thinking things... the darn scale is still stuck at 149, we'll pray for better news in the morning, I refuse to step on the scale in the evening, it usually reads 3 to 4 lbs heavier, which just discourages me. Therefore, I only get on the scale first thing in the morning, that's the only time. So, hoping for results in the morning. How is everyone doing today?

[Skinny_Chick]

Wow, the weekend was so bad I don't even want to go there. My pants are a little tighter than usual today But, it's a new week. Breakfast is 1/2 a Nonfat Sugar Free Starbucks Latte.... 68 cal.
I said the other day that I wish *Aquafina* would make a bigger water bottle than the 1 litre size. Well, I went to the store and behold! I find in the 1 litre spot there is 1.5 litres I am so happy. I drink my 1 litres a little to quickly at work, so I bought a pile of bigger bottles.
It's back to the office for me right now, I had a phone fiasco here last week, but more on that later. I'm shooting for no more than salad today. GOOD LUCK to all of you Skinny Vibes today

[ThinMint06]

hey skinny!!
evil lunch word!
you're fighting the temptation though- that's for sure!!! You're doing great!!!
will be on yahoo tonight to chat!!

[Skinny_Chick]

Definately in on Day 1 of the new fast... my jeans are killing me due to the food fiasco this weekend Love you all!

[ThinMint06]

hi skinny! how is your first day???

[Skinny_Chick]

DAY 3........ Here we go. The scale is FINALLY back to the 149 from last weekend. I got on it Monday night, thought I was going to pass out. It said 156 from the bad weekend. Thankfully I'm back to 149. I have coffee, 2.5 litres of water, chicken broth and a peppermint tea in case my stomach starts to hurt later at the office with me. I also have my hoodia. I get it from ebay dirt cheap. $14 a bottle with free shipping. I don't know about the rest of you, but the pharmacies around here all want $40 to $50 a bottle, and I just can't bring myself to pay it. I love my cheap 20:1 Hoodia, FANTASTIC STUFF ) So, today should be good. I'm not hungry anymore which is a bonus. Today is future hubby's birthday, with any luck we won't go to dinner. He believes I have a cold, so hopefully that will help. GOOD LUCK TODAY! Skinny vibes

[Skinny_Chick]

DAY 4... my weight for the day will have to wait until future hubby gets out of the shower. Hoping for 148, that would be VERY nice. More in a bit.

[Skinny_Chick]

I'm beginning to think there's something wrong with me... I'm only losing about a hallf pound a day I'm going to have to cut back on the sodium again. Last time this happened it was due to to much chicken broth and not enough water . I've been keeping chicken broth in my office lately. The first time I got on the scale this morning it said 149.5 which is what I weighed yesterday the second said 149. I always have to wait about 45 minutes after I get up to get on the scale... not real sure why but that's when my lowest weight of the day usually shows up... I'm off to another day at the office, maybe I'll skip the chicken broth today, that's a good idea. GOOD LUCK Skinny Vibes to everyone

[ThinMint06]

hey skinny!!!
you're doing great!!
i think this is going to end amazingly!! I'm going strong, you seem to be holding strong too!!
as for the future hubby, tell him you always eat a big lunch and light dinner. what's he going to do say you're lying??? okay... well either way YOU'RE NOT EATING!! make that very clear, tell him that you already had meat and potatoes for lunch... a bic mac, whatever. you're soooo full. rub your belly and poof it out a little. he'll leave you alone.
you're doing great!!!
keep going!!!!

[Skinny_Chick]

Good night to you all! Leaving work, so there's a pretty big chance I won't be on until tomorrow Have a skinny, skinny night