A Skinny Journey...

[Skinny_Chick]

Thanks Nicky you are SO right!

I DON'T BELIEVE THIS! I get on the scale this morning AND.... 150.5 WTF? I don't believe it but I'll take it

No breakfast as of yet, going to hope there's no bagels at the office this morning. I'll take my Pepsi Jazz Strawberries and Cream with me. Did it yesterday and obviously it must have helped I'm going to finish getting ready for work and with any luck we'll all have a *Skinny* *Skinny* Morning

[Skinny_Chick]

The office is usually very quiet in the morning. I always seem to get here like an hour before everyone else, well it's supposed to be a half hour but my bosses aren't very punctual usually lol. It's nice. I'm fortunate enough to love my job. I'm not sure lately what my job title actually is but that's fine with me. Mix it up a little, if it was boring I couldn't handle it. I work for a Car Dealer who also happens to own a Property Development company.... my boss is here, Diet Pepsi Jazz is the perfect breakfast today.

[candy]

That pop sounds really good. I know that Diet Coke is my elixir of life. Hungry? Have a coke. Thirst? have a coke. Tired? have a coke. It fixes all my problems, just makes me pee alot, but meh!

That's great that you're at 150, you'll be in the low 40's in no time!

[nickytml]

yayyyy for 150.5 I am soooooo happy for u! i wouldnt complain either jsut smileeee and enjoy ur skinnny day

[Skinny_Chick]

Morning ladies. FH came home last night, but he just left so all is well. Dinner went pretty well last night. He wanted sloppy joes. UGH. So, I had 1/4 cup... 70 calories, fortunately the scale still reads 150.5 because I really try not to eat after about 6:30 or so except for tea or Jello anything else throws off the scale or seems to. Not too bad, but I have SERIOUS issues about eating with him anymore. Unavoidable sometimes, I know but if I can keep it to a minimum it'll be alright. Then he wakes up this morning and of course wants breakfast. Luckily I've been eating a ton of Rice Puff cereal (60 calories and the appearance of eating what's not to love about that one??) So, he got this ridiculously huge bowl of Cheerios and I got a bitty bowl of Rice Puffs.

Breakfast total...
*Aquafina* 0 calories
Rice Puffs 60 calories

I'm going to aim to get more of my 50 calorie rice for lunch, or maybe I'll road trip again today. I was on the other side of the state yesterday. We'll see. *Skinny* morning to you all!!

[Skinny_Chick]

*Sigh*
Another morning in the office... although I had a small triumph this morning. I went to get bagels, and I got a fruit cup 75 calories. Kind of proud for resisting the Asiago Cheese bagel. Go me. There's a million people who keep walking by my office this morning go figure, my office is all the wayi n the back off our office where are they all coming from lol? So already today I've had

Cheerios 75
Fruit cup 75

150 already, but it wasn't as bad as the bagel would have been. The rest of my day should only include my rice and maybe some veggies. More later *Skinny* Day!

[Skinny_Chick]

Ive had success so far today.

Cheerios 75 calories
Fruit Cup 75 calories
and...
Tomato Basil Rice 50 calories (100 if I eat all of it).
Diet Orange Cream soda 0 calories

Pretty happy about it too. I'll have veggies or fruit probably fruit for dinner, maybe some chips or chocolate later (darn pms cravings) and keep the calorie count for the day under 400. Better than 500, if FH is gone tonight it'll be much easier to do. More in awhile, if FH is home tonight I won't be on til the morning, so I'll get on in awhile. *Skinny* afternoon.

[Skinny_Chick]

I was doing so well today Food wise I'm still great. FH just called to let me know that he's not getting paid this week . Supposedly all the $2500 he's made in the last week is taken up by paying for his truck. If his 2 truck payments are only $700 together then WTF?? I don't get it? I wonder if he's playing with me? Some serious things to think about. Anyone have any wisdom for me?

[nickytml]

that is realllly weird that his 2500 he made all goes towards his truck - id definetely look into that to make sure he isnt keepin his money from u, or lying to u

but great job on the eating well goood choice on teh fruit cup, soooo much more healthy. and that 50 calorie lunch rice is amazing!! that will help u out in the long run now that u know about it. hopefully dinner goes just as well as the rest of ur amazingggg day

[candy]

Wow, you're doing great! YOu've done so well these last couple of days food wise, especially if you're craving with pms! I'm so proud!

About the 2500, just because his truck payments are only 700 bucks, don't forget about gas and maintenamce. Gas for a regular car is like what, 50 bucks a tank, imagine what it is for a hauler. That could be it, but it's always best to bring it up.

I hope the scales are good to you tomorrow morning!

[Skinny_Chick]

150.5 this morning.

I do believe that as of 1:30pm today my relationship is officially over . We got into it this morning, he grabbed my arm and tried to pull my ring off. When I told him later that he was a jerk and my arm hurt, his response was...."It's not like I hit you" Are you kidding me WTF? He says I broke his heart, (I told one of my best friends that I really needed a hug on a really bad day, this particular friend is a guy I've known for 6 years). I told him he NEVER had the right to touch me, he said whatever. That's a game I refuse to play.

So, I get to move back to my house full time. Yup. I'm just numb right now.

[ThinMint06]

whoaaaaaaa!!! whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!???????
officially over??
what was the fight about? bc you got a hug from a good friend???? huh??? that's a lame lame LAME excuse. and he has zero right to grab you-- and how DARE he try to take your ring!! what??? even if you were over, it's YOUR ring!!
oh skinny, try not to let this bother you. just use it as fasting motivation.
*huggles you bunches*
keep up the great work, soup queen

[candy]

OH my god! What a jerk! I'm soo sorry, that sucks so bad. I can't believe he tried to take your ring! That is just ridiculous, you take back gifts, especially engagement rings, those are the girls to keep forever even if his sorry ass screwed up the relationship! GRR!!!! I'm so mad for you. Makes me mad at my ex again! Ah! I hate boys! They should all be shot! Seriously what was he thinking? And the fight was over you giving your friend a hug? Seriously, he's got some serious issues that he needs to deal with! GRR!

I hope that you're dealing with it ok, just use it as motivation, which every way you see it, sadness, anger, or happiness, you can use all emotions to your weightloss advantage. Sad, too sad to eat. Anger, most stomach acid, nothing tastes good, happiness, score, back in the single zone, gotta look good!
Big tight breath squishing hugs! We're all here if you need to pour your heart out!

Stay strong skinny!

[Skinny_Chick]

Thanks guys. YEa, after this weekends fiasco FH is no longer FH he will be stupid boy that's what he acts like. So over the weekend in my MySpace there were some terrible things written about me. Nasty, nasty names that no one should ever have to be called. I had to untimely remove my post it message board because people were leaving nasty anonymous messages. The worst part about it is that obviously my friends would NEVER do that, but it's been narrowed to his sister or his cousins wife. Are you kidding me. He spent his entire weekend attempting to get me to wear my ring again (as if nothing was wrong and everything is ok) HELLO! It's not even remotely ok. He's asking me to give up some of my best friends because he's to insecure, screw that. I don't need that, these are friends who have been there for me for years, not inconsequential people who come and go. These are the friends who gave me a place to go when I had no place to go, the friends who pick me back up when I think I'll never get back up again. He's insecure and doesn't want me talking to them (and obviously doesn't like the fact that those are the hugs that have literally almost saved my life when I'm so depressed I don't know what to do) I think the entire thing is BS and how am I supposed to look at his sisters (knowing that they may have wrote those awful things about me) or his cousins wife the same way again? There's no way. So, he's moping around wondering why I won't stay with him, or wear that ring. As if the answer isn't right in front of him, for now I couldn't be with him if I tried, that's just way to much for me to deal with. I can't. So on I go, coffee is the best this morning 68 calories The scale is stuck at 151. I'll get it down by the end of the week.

[Skinny_Chick]

Food wise today is not a bad day. Stupid boy is messing with my day though.

Breakfast...
Non Fat Latte 68 calories (half a latte)
Lunch...
Black Bean Salad 1/4 Cup 62 calories

Tell you what, I'm loving the deli down the street between the Tomato Basil Rice (which they didn't have today) and the Black Bean Salad I actually have lunch options at the office now. Makes my life a little simpler.

The boy however is driving me nuts. Calling me asking if I'm still talking to my friends (they're my friends what the hell do you think?) because he doesn't approve of any of the ones that aren't girls and I should respect that he doesn't like them, blah blah. Wanting to know if I'm going to come over tonight (maybe) if I'm staying (not so much) any why I need to be away from him (you're really insecure and driving me nuts not to mention you bought this really expensive truck to make all this money without consulting me, AND YOU ARE ON YOUR ASS AT HOME, after the load he got yesterday was taken away from him because he kept a bunch of stuff plugged in and killed his truck battery he lost $500 because of it too ! NOT WORKING TO MAKE MONEY!! WTF?) Meanwhile I'm working almost 10 hours (well 9.75 to be exact) almost 10 hours a day trying to make sure my stuff is taken care of and paid. Screw that, am I better off without him? I am really wondering lately.